A note to my Ex

Chapter one

" Come on Blaire" Declan says, as he shifts over to get some more popcorn.

" No" she says as another sob rakes through her.

I just continue to sit there not saying anything, because I know that nothing I say will help right now.

" You over here playing ' We Belong together' at 2Am in the morning, while Fin is out there partying and hooking up with who knows who."

Sebastian says, as he turns off the Tv.

" Hey it was finally getting to the good part." I whine as I stand up off the couch.

" Really Iris" Declan says with an amused grin, plastered on his beautiful face.

I momentarily freeze at the thought of Declan being beautiful and I internally cringe.

See it's not that the thought repulses me, it's just that it's beyond weird.

See Declan and I have been friends since Kindergarten and I've always thought he was attractive, but this year puberty hit him.

Like a hurricane, because damn.

He became hot. I'd say he is the best looking out of everyone in my inner circle.

Which consists, of the red head boy Sebastian, the sobbing Blaire, the genius Duncan, the to cool for school Avril, the hot Declan.

Oh and me, Iris blue.

The girl who got broken up with by her boyfriend, at her birthday party last year.

Yup greatest present ever. I know.

Anyway, sidetracking.

See the reason Blaire, Seb, Declan and I are all currently watching "Truth or Dare" at Blaire's house, is because Blaire had just been broken up with by her boyfriend.

Fin Samules, the captain of the lacrosse team.

I know how she feels and right now I know that nothing I say or do will fix the hole inside her heart.

To be completely honest though. I'm quite happy it's over, because I never liked Fin in the first place. For 2 reasons.

1. He is apart of the popular student population, so his ego and his arrogance radiate off him in waves.

2. He never treated Blaire, the way she deserved to be treated. In fact he treated her like a piece of meat. In my opinion.

I would tell her this, but right now I don't think she'd handle it too well. She'd probably throw me out or worse, begin to speak about Cole Stone.

The boy who ironically, is good friends with Fin. The boy who actually is friends with everyone, but me.

" Iris" I hear someone say, which snaps me out of my trans.

I see Seb looking at me intently for a moment.

" You where zoning out again, I thought you're dad told you too stop doing that." Seb says, concern evident in his voice.

" He did and I'm trying to" I say not meeting Sebs piercing emerald green eyes.

" Anyway, what did I miss?" I say finally meeting his gaze.

" Nothing really. Blaire went upstairs to go and sleep and Declan went with her to make sure she is all good."

I nod my head.

" I know we haven't spoken about it in a while, but how's you're mom?" Seb says not looking at me.

" Umm... the doctors say that the drugs caused a lot of damage and her brain isn't functioning properly at the moment." I say as I swallow the lump in my throat.

" My dad refuses to see her" I add softly, as I look at the marble floor.

" It will all turn out fine Is. I'm always here if you wanna speak."

Seb says as he comes towards me and gives me a warm friendly hug.

" Am I interrupting something" we hear Declan's voice suddenly say.

We both break apart and look to see him standing at the bottom of the staircase, with a look of disgust on his face.

I wonder why?

" Blaire good?" Seb asks, casually ignoring the glare Declan is sending towards him.

" Yeah she's good. Seeing you two are both good. Let's go." Declan says harshly and turns to leave.

Once we hear the door slam shut. I turn to Seb and say "what was that about?"

" Guess you are always in a trans." Seb says in reply, with a sly smile, as he walks past me.

I stand there confused for a moment, but I don't have time to think as Declan gives off a hoot. Impatient as always I think.

Finally after an awkward 15 minute car drive, I arrive home.

My dad is a cop and is always on duty or on call. So it doesn't surprise me that he isn't home.

My brother Jeremy who is a senior a year above me, has fallen asleep on the couch.

I smile at the sight and cover him with a blanket. I then proceed on and walk to the kitchen.

I make myself a cup of tea, then head upstairs to my room.

Once In bed, I close my eyes.

However just like every other night, I don't sleep well. As the nightmare I continuously have every single night begins.

" Sweet dreams Iris" is how it always starts.

•••

" Don't" I hear my dad scream. As my mom tries to approach him.

" I'm sorry Dave. I'm so sorry." My mom says as tears stream down her pale angelic face.

" How could you do this Charlotte? How could you do this to us? To you're kids? To our family? To me?"

My dad says as tears begin to escape his brownish hazel eyes.

" I'm sorry" is all my mom can say.

" Sorry can't fix this mess." My dad says as he begins to pace up and down.

" What do I tell my parents? You're parents. My brother, you're siblings? Most importantly what do I tell our kids?"

My dad says as anger begins to trace his features.

" I... I don't know" my mom stutters.

I stand there, behind the wall. Frozen in place. As the tears start to swell up in my eyes.

" Why did you take them?" My dad yells.

" You'll wake the kids." My mom says in a hushed whisper.

" They'll find out in the next few hours Charlotte." My dad says disgust ridden on his face.

" Dave, please." My mom says practically pleading.

" I have to. Do you know what you've done? What you've caused?"

My dad continues on.

" Our kids are going to grow up without a mother, because of what you've done. Do you understand that."

My mouth opens and closes. I drop the glass of  in my hand. The glass shatters into millions of pieces all around me.

Representing my whole world shattering.

All of a sudden it's quite and I know my parents know that I've heard everything.

I run upstairs to my room and close the door behind me. I cry and cry.

Until eventually I fall asleep In a puddle of my very own tears.

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