Unrequited Love

Senior Year

This was finally the year. Senior year. 

I felt like I've been in school for a century, but my having my bestfriends next to me the entire time made life so much easier. Especially Namjoon. He was always the most supportive and understanding. 

I never told many people, only because I didn't want their pity, but Namjoon knew how I felt about myself. I was no where near thin like the girls at my school and that alone made me more insecure about myself. He just didn't know how people treated me

I didn't have many friends, other than the boys. And it was impossible to friends with any other girls. They always made fun of me calling me names like fat, ugly, whale girl and the such. 

Its always been like this and no one ever knew, because of the smile that I wear on a daily. 

As long as you smile you'll get through anything. Right?

I rolled over in bed and stared at the door, letting the sun warm my plump, plushy (S/C) skin. The same skin I've come to slowly dislike. Littered in stretch marks and dimples. Sighing I climbed out of bed and went to get ready for my first day of senior year. 

After showering, brushing them teeth and getting dressed. I head downstairs to find my mother in the kitchen putting the rest of breakfast on the table, while my little brother sat there swinging his little legs back and forth. 

"Morning Mom. Morning Lolan," I say sitting at the table. 

"Oh, well good morning my high school senior."

"Morning sister." 

"So are you ready for your last year of high school?"

"As I'll ever be."

"You think you'll get a boyfriend this year?"

"Maaaaa." I whined, but smiling. 

"Or girlfriend. I support you either way."

"Mom, boys don't like girls like me." I mumbled, sipping on my glass of water. 

"What do you mean honey."

"Mom Im fat! Boys don't like that!"

"Now you listen to me young lady. I didn't raise you to care about what people think about you. I raised you to be the the most beautiful, strong intelligent woman you are. And so what if those boys at your school don't like you. They are boys. They wouldn't know how to handle a real woman if the was a book published on it."

"Yeah and they are boys and yeah." Lolan mumbled, biting into his muffin. 

Chuckling at his cuteness, I wipe the stray tear that has fallen on my plump cheeks. 

"Honey." my mom said, bending down and hugging me. "You are beautiful and size has nothing to do with that. Understand?"

"Yes."

"Now eat up. You'll have to leave soon."

I turn forward into my chair only to hear a knock on the front door. My mom quickly walked to the door. And when she walked back inside my friend Namjoon and Jin were close behind her, smiling as they saw me. 

"Hey guys!" I squeaked, getting up to pull them into a hug. 

"(Y/n)!" Namjoon said, squeezing me tightly, planting a kiss on my cheek. My heart skipped a beat and tighten at the innocent action. Pulling back I see his deep dimples. Oh boy. Then there was the clearing of a throat. 

"You know. Worldwide Handsome here." Giggling, I push my face into his chest as I hugged him. 

Pulling back I look up at the two tall boys smiling down at me all innocently. Smiling back I grab a couple muffins off the table and hand them to the boys before grabbing my bag to head off to school. 

"I'm leaving mom. See ya Lolan."

"Bye bye."

Walking out the house I see Jimin and Taehyung sitting on the porch giggling, pushing each other back and forth. Upon our arrival they turned around. Tae showing off his boxy smile and Jimin crescent shaped eyes.

"(N/N)! Noona!"

"Jiminie! Tae!" 

They jumped up and hugged me. Bouncing up and down like little kids, there excitement obviously showing. 

"So Noona, how does it feel to be a senior? Aren't you excited." 

"Absolutely." 

"Oh Hyung called and said to meet them at school."

"Great. You ready (Y/N)? Namjoon asked, finishing off his muffin. 

"As I'll ever be."

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Big Hit High School.

Students lounged all in front of the building, laughing, talking, catching up with friends. And the girl with their thin long legs, showing from their shorts, dresses and skirts. All the guys ogling at them. I'd never know how that'd feel. Everyone staring at you in want and love, even lust. 

"Hey you guys!" A voice yelled. I looked up to see JHope running with Jungkook and Yoongi following slowly behind. 

 "Noona!" Jungkook yelled

"Hi Kookie!" 

"What about me?"

"Hi Hoseokie. Hi Yoongi." 

Yoongi shyly smiled and waved, a faint blush brushing across his pale cheeks. It was absolutely adorable and made the butterflies in my stomach slightly flutter. I never seen him really blush. I wonder what that was about? He never acted like that before.

I waved back, smiling before the voice of Taehyung brought me back from this unrealistic daydream.

"Hey Kook, you see all these beautiful women walking around?" Tae asked, throwing his arm over his shoulders. 

"That's what I was thinking man." He laughed, pushing him off his shoulders. "This is gonna be a good year."

"Hey Jungkook." A pretty raven haired girl giggled, waving her slender fingers at him. 

"I'll see you guys later." He murmured, walking off in the direction of the giggling girl and her friends. 

And that's how I was slowly forgotten and left alone. The boys going off in different directions chasing the beautiful women walking around campus. 

As I walked into the building going to homeroom a group of guys walked pass bumping into me, roughly. My body hammering into some lockers. 

"Ow." I whimpered. 

"Oi watch were you're walking whale."

"This isn't the deep blue sea!"

The obnoxiously laughed after yelling their insults. Keeping my hear down I hurriedly walked down the hall. What did I expect to happen. Just graduate without constant bullying and my self-esteem lowering than it normally does. It's just. . . . 

Senior Year.