LOVE after Sunrise

Prologue

It was raining so hard, sky was so gloomy and grey. Almost dark because of the heavy rain clounds. Cold wind whispered across my face and my bare skin, making me shiver slightly. I held thight at my red umbrella, my knuckles turn to white. I was standing inside his lawn, just outside his front porch staring at the closed door.

transfixed.

What just had happened? I stood frozen to the ground. I feel like im already dead, almost not moving. How many minutes I was standing here? Is it hours? maybe.. I dont know and I dont care. My red shoes was soaking wet and dirty with mudd, but i dont give a shit. I feel so numb, I couldnt think straight anymore. Perhaps my brain has already stop working.

--this was like a scene from a very sad movie -- a girl was crying in the middle of the rain.. she was so lost.. so helpless.. she was just waiting and begging.. hoping that somehow that boy she had love more than herself would change his mind and come back to her.. but just like every sad lovestory, it only ends in tragedy.

Wait.

Maybe this isn't real.. I put my hopes up, but my heart is telling me otherwise. I wanted to cry, but my tears wont come out. I wanted to shout, but I cant even open my mouth. Arrrggghh! I know something was wrong, i know something bad or worst had happened here. I try to remember but, just thinking about it send a throbbing pain in my head. Did i hit my head or something? Haha! Nothing beats me with clumsiness. Well, it feels good to make fun of myself. Hahaha! I was laughing so hard, it bring tears to my eyes.

Haha haha.. I didn't stop, I laugh again like I'd never laugh in my entire life. Then there it goes again, the only thing im afraid to feel right now. Pain.

Aaarrrgh!

I can feel it coming out again, my head.. I closed my eyes, i felt dizzy then there's this excruciating pain shot inside me, I clutched my chest. It hurts like hell. I trembled. My breathing become so hard, Im so scared. I dont want to feel this pain again.

No, no! Dont.

I try to numb myself, maybe if i did the pain would go away. I have to block everything so I wont feel any of this. I dont want this!

The loud sound of a thunder followed by lightning shot across the dark grey sky startled me. Ive suddenly let go of my umbrella. I gasped, as soon as I felt the cold rain drop in my head. I could feel my hair and clothes starting to get wet, i shivered instantly when a cold wind hit my skin. I was caught off guard, i felt weak and pathetic. I could feel the pain now, its starting again. I started to panicked, Images flashed through my head over and over again.. I cant stop it..

"It was all a mistake.."

dont, please.. I closed my eyes..

"Im sorry!"

stop! please stop.. I covered my ears..

"Good Bye Dianna!"

No! Nooooooo... I screamed in so much agony.. my vision blurred from the rain.. and from my own tears..