Dear diary

13/10/19

Dear Diary,

I woke up today and my dad was ironing it was approximately 6:30am and honestly it kicked in.. I miss my mum so much😩. My dad kept waking me up and I felt so heavily tired then whilst my dad was ironing my clothes, I went to have a shower while the water was pouring down and the steam arose, the tears started to shed down then I got better got ready.. my suit was a bit smelly but my ironed clothes were on point lol.. I was home to fully start moisturising my skin, applying foundation and high lighter to make my skin pop❤️. Went to White Sunday did the tasks and performance we needed to do then I muddled up in my lines and repeated one line and missed one out I feel very annoyed and dad cos during past rehearsals I was doing great but today changed but oh well🤷🏼‍♂️can't change what's already happened. Any who! it was good overall felt the same, dragged a bit but I started to fall for a dude well in a lust way he's so cute we made some exchange of eye contact but maybe I'm overthinking it lol. But once I got home I wanted to go see my mum but my dad was tired cos we pretty much saw her yesterday my brother had work and my other brother had to go to his boxing training so left me a bit sad cos this day is a significant day.
So on Instagram I just did a post and an appreciation post to my brother & dad who have helped me grow, in reflection today has been emotional and draining but I'm thankful that White Sunday is done because I'm over it lol.

Tomorrow should be interesting because I have to deal with some people who share no sympathy for my problems at uni so I think I'll be quite strong when it comes to addressing it because just because I am Brown and Pacific does not mean that we are less than the so called 'majority' best believe I will let them know so they can be aware to not mess with me no longer.