Best Friends

Part 3: Halloween

It was about a month into freshman year. A month knowing Damon Salvatore. Everyday I felt more and more head over heels for my best friend. Caroline kept insinuating that he liked me back since he's popular and still single but hanging out with me. I didn't think so. I couldn't help to think that maybe he was holding back because I was fifteen and he was two years older than me and knew that I wasn't allowed to date yet. Or maybe the age difference prevented us from ever being more than friends. I can't help but think about what will happen when he graduates being one year behind isn't that bad but two is hard. Caroline just wants me to tell him the truth and I know I can't. If I told Damon that I liked him it could ruin our friendship. There's a chance that he wouldn't want to me more than friends. It that's truth then I could lose him for just only being honest. It really sucks. Everytime I'm around him my heart races. It sounds ridiculous but I've never felt this way about someone before. It doesn't help that I'm fifteen and my hormones are still crazy. I've never even had my first kiss. He knows that too. He can get any secret out of me except the secret that I like him. During my freshman year I was always either with Caroline, Matt or Damon most of the time. It was rare that I was ever alone. I liked that. My family was never home so most of the time it'd just be me before this year. Even when Caroline lived with us she'd spend a lot of her time with Matt. When I got close to Damon he'd spend so much time at my house. He'd even use my balcony instead of my door when no one else was even home. It was romantic.

I walked into gym class. I had this class with a few of Damon's cheerleader friends. I always felt so self conscious in my shorts and tank top around these beautiful girls. It didn't help that Damon and all the others boys had gym class at the same time. Once in awhile our teachers would combine the classes for sport games. It was enough that I had to be around judgemental girls in this outfit, I didn't want Damon or Stefan to see this much of my disgusting body.

Rebekah and Vicky laughed while they stared at me warming up. "She thinks she has a shot with Damon." I overheard Rebekah say.

I was pretty sure she knew I could hear her. I felt horrible it was awful. I didn't understand how someone so sweet like Damon was ever friends with girls that were so mean. I looked over at the other side of the gym and Damon waved at me. I waved back and then turned my head toward Rebekah and Vicky. "Isn't that sweet?" I smirked as I watched them roll their eyes.

Becoming Damon's friend gave me a lot of confidence to be myself. I do own that to Damon he let me put my guard down and be myself. When you can be yourself with the most popular handsomest guy in school you can be yourself anywhere. I still didn't feel good about my body but I didn't have to hide who I was. The only thing I couldn't do with Damon is to be honest with him about my feelings. I've told him way worse than that he understood me. He listened and cared. So I knew if I ever did tell him how I feel he'd be a gentleman about it but no matter what it'd still ruin our friendship if he didn't like me back.

I spent Halloween with Caroline and Matt at Damon's party. It was his seventeenth birthday party he celebrates on Halloween because his birthday is so close to it. He's a year and 10 months older than me so for two months into the school year I was fifteen and he was sixteen. Technically for two months I could say he was only a year older than me. It was a fun party for most people I'm not the type of girl to get drunk at a house party. I had never been to a house party before and I wasn't sure if this counted because it was still a birthday and a costume party. I would have had more fun if Damon wasn't so busy thanking everyone for coming. I was dressed in normal clothes since I wasn't really into the Halloween thing this year. It was something I use to enjoy but I stopped liking it after fifth grade. My brother was dressed as spider man and I was a ariel. My older brother Jeremy was taking us out and he was with his girlfriend. He took his eye off of us and I ended up getting lost. It was terrifying for an ten year old. It was so dark out and I was looking for my brother but instead I was pushed down concrete steps. Some older kids thought it was funny so they took my candy then pushed me. It never appealed to me to ever dress up for Halloween again. Stefan did bother me that night. He was dressed in a vampire costume and he told me he wanted to sink his teeth into me. So classy. I wasn't falling for any of his bullshit.