Too much time pretending
Too much time hiding
Im crawling inside myself.
A shell.
Im broken, Im dying
Im not myself.
Im feeling overrated
Like Ill never be okay.
The light at the end of the
Tunnel, is shrinking
The other end blocked.
No way escape...
The lights gone and
Im burried in the darkness
Thats closing in around me
Strangled by the slience that
consumes me.
The Truth that shatters
Around me cutting me
open.
Where did I go wrong?
Im Alone.
I promised myself Id never
Do this to myself but here
I sit on my bedroom floor
Listening to our song
Choking back tear
Praying one day this
Hurting will leave me be.
I promised myself Id never
be this weak, this vulnerable
Never again.
I broke my promise.
It broke my heart.
You left me here on
The floor with a bleeding
I could stop.
You left me with one
Last breath no problem.
Feeling as though my heart
is filling with ice and my
eyes with dirt.
Trying to beath is impossible
Like my lungs are full of mud.
Like my body wants me dead...
I wonder still to this day
If Ill ever be okay again..
Like I used to be
