You dont know what I am feeling
Or how much I hurt.
The wet spots are from tears on the
Collar of this shirt.
You think I should go on with life.
Forget about it and be strong.
But deep down I am sad, and I dont want
To go alone.
I dont expect you to understand why
For no apparent reason I break down and start to cry,
My life has changed forever, you see.
And thats why I am not acting like the same ole me.
So please, Dont try and act like nothing
Happened, because it has changed my life forever, I
Will never be the same as I was again.
Not today, not tomorrow, But never.
The best thing you can do for me is
Just be there like you always are. Hold
me and my hand as I sit in your lap falling
apart. My heart is hurting bad, I need you
to try and understand that and my lack of trust
and Faith in everyone. You are who I run to,
You are who takes care of me at my weakest point.
Ive grown and learned that
The worst kind of crying is
when your lips start to shake
and tears build up quickly and fall
Fast. Youre bent over the couch or crouched
on the floor. Trying to suck it in and not
Make a single noise, but it hurts
It burns your chest and your eyes and
you feel youre nose begin to run and theres
nothing you can do.
You realize that there is too much to hold in,
It hurts so you let it out in a little yelp
and you cry. Then it comes in waves where you cant
breathe, Which sucks because not only are you crying
out loud and you feel weak and vulnerable but
you think you sound dumb for not breathing too
and you cant catch your breath, suffication due
to your own sadness... Its a mess and you are praying for
It to end, crying on the floor begging for someone
anyone just to take the pain.
