Not So Hard To Get//Ereri AOT Fanfiction

chapter 3 - the captains tears and smile

Erens pov

The captain hasnt been very happy for the past few days, as so i can tell even though he doesnt really show his emotions. Even when he laughs or chuckles, he does it with a straight face. We were all eating in our private hall so we are away from the rookies. It makes me happy that we have our own separate rooms.

Levi was sitting at the end as usual, he kept spacing out, i dont think the others had noticed it. I notice hes spaced out by seeing that he just holding his tea cup infront of his mouth but doesnt move at all. As if hes a stick figure. I decided to get up and walk to him since im on the other end.

Everyone didnt notice me standing up, instead they were having their own little conversations. I walk towards him and i bend to his height. "Captain?" I said quietly. He flinched slightly before looking at me in the eyes.

"What is it jaeger?" He asks taking a sip of his drink.

"Your spacing out quite often for the past few dsys. Is there anything on your mind?" I ask him with concern.

"Listen jaeger... its nothing for you to worry about." He says putting his cup down, getting up and leaving the room. I look down frowning before going back to sit down.

Levis pov

I sigh as i sit on my bed, what eren had said to me a few days ago has been running through my mind so much i havent been able to concentrate on my work.

"Hey captain..." he asks quietly. I look up at him. "Can i ask you something?"

"What is it?" I ask not looking away from him.

"Im just wondering but.. what are you going to do once all the titans are gone?" He asks me. I look down before sighing.

"I honestly dont know. Life as a captain would have to end due to the fact theres nothing for me to do. I dont know, maybe restart... get a job, grow a family of my own... thats if i ever get married. Even if i dont i can just live my own quiet life." I say a little unfocused. He frowns slightly.

"Im sure someone would love to be your wife or even husband, captain." He says with a wide grin. I looks at him with wide eyes.

"Why would you think that?" I ask confused.

"Well your strong, on good days your really nice even when you dont seem it. You may be short tempered but you control that very well. You look out for others and you help them in any way you can. Your like a saviour captain... someone who everyone can look up to. Maybe even commander erwin sometimes. You are humanities strongest after all." He says staring off into space.

I hold my head slightly. I never thought anyone would say that to me. But how could someone love me anyway. Im not your average type of man... i dont show emotions, i dont cry, i havent since... they died...

'Urgh why is life so freaking frustrating!?' I thought now laying on my bed. I sigh covering my eyes with my arm. 'Im 37 this year... i feel like my life has just been filled with death. I just feel like everything ive done here has been a waste of time. Sometimes i question myself whether im good enough for anything...' i thought deeply.

I closed my eyes for a few seconds. They opened again when i heard a knock at the door. 'I bet you thats eren...' i thought before sighing.
"Come in" i say. The door opened revealing who i had guessed. I let my arm go to the side of me and i pushed myself up to stand.

"Captain-" he started but i cut him off.

"Im fine jaeger" i say guessing what he was going to say. He looked down before back to me.

"Clearly, your not." He said. I looked at him before walking over to my closet.

"Im not here to talk about feelings. So if you dont mind i would like to be left alone." I say slightly harsh.

He sighs slightly. "Im not here to talk about your feelings. Im here to ask you if your coming to watch the rookies train." He says. I huff slightly as i put on a blazer over my buttoned up shirt.

"Does erwin want me there?" I asked with my back to him.

"He said it would be nice to see you there to see how the rookies are doing." He answers. I nod slightly before walking over to him. His eyes widen as he notices something.

"What is it?" I ask confused.

"Have you been... crying....?" He asks. My eyes widened as i wipe my eyes. I look at my fingers seeing that they were slightly wet. I sigh.

'Seems i was crying without realising. Why... why was i crying...' i thought to myself. I look at eren. "You saw.. nothing.." i say before going to the training grounds, eren following close behind, concern written on his face.

Erwin looked at me and smiled, "good to see you here levi." He said. The rookies heard and looked over, all of them now looking sad. Erwin looked at them. "Back to training cadets.'' He said to them and they continued. I sigh slightly before standing next to erwin with my arms crossed. Eren stood behind me. I frowned slightly.

"Eren." I say. He looked at me. I turn around to look at him. I notice erwin go to another cadet, leaving us to be alone for a bit. "Why do you care for me so much?" I ask.

"I said a few days ago that i loved you. That means i care about you in many ways. Your feelings matter sir... seeing that you had tears in your eyes earlier made me think whats really on your mind. It troubles me to see you like that.. knowing nothing, i dont know what i can do to help and that annoys me because honestly, id love to see captains smile... instead of a frown for once." he says before looking at me.

"Your such a brat. You know that right?" I said while smiling, my hair covering one of my eyes (like picture at top). His eyes blinked quickly.

"Your... your smile is so beautiful..." he says softly. My face went red from that and i looked down.

"You wont see it all the time and please dont compliment my smile. Im not a fan of it." I say. He walked to me grabbing my hands. I looked up at him in shock. He had a small smile on his face.

"But its true.. so learn to accept it... your really amazing captain." He says sweetly. My cheeks went dark red.

"Eren...." i said quickly. He gave me a big smile and at that point, i felt something in my chest.