Make A Wish - (Roman Reigns)

Chapter 19

Galina's lips were moving but he couldn't hear a word she said over his own thoughts. He knew he was stuck between a rock and a hard place. She'd been good to him, too good to him during the resurrection of their marriage and she did not deserve what he'd been doing while he was away. It was completely unfair to her. It was going to be a difficult conversation to have but it had to be done.

"The boys can't agree on who they want to be for Halloween. I told them to pick what they want but they want to match of course so I don't know what to do. I guess I could send them to school in one set and then let them trick or treat in the other," she mused as she walked back and forth through the kitchen.

He sighed. "Galina, we need to talk."

"Okay?" she pulled a chair back at the table and sat down.

"You deserve to know the truth. I can't lie to you anymore. I thought I could live with it but keeping it inside and seeing your face and pretending like everything is okay is killing me. I have something to tell you. It's going to be hard for me to say and even harder for you to hear I'm sure..." he paused for a moment to gather his thoughts.

"Do you love her?" Galina blurted before he had a chance to say anything. He appeared shocked. "Do you think I'm stupid, Joe? I've been with you for how many years? If I don't know you and your behavior by now, I don't know who does. I tried to pretend and ignore the signs but this is the same feeling I had before we separated last year but it's worse this time because at least back then we were still having sex while we came to terms with things. I knew it wasn't the pills but I just wanted to see your reaction. There's really no point in lying or trying to prolong the inevitable anymore. Just answer the question."

It was officially time for the truth to come out. "G, I've loved only you from the moment we met. We've been together for all these years and I've loved every second of it. You're the best wife I could've had. I don't understand how this happened, but I love both of you. I know it makes no sense and I didn't want it to happen, but something just grabbed me when I met Robyn. We just clicked. I feel like I'm someone else when she and I are together. Like there's me, you and the kids, and then there's this other me and her. I'm so sorry, baby. I don't know what to do."

"But there's just one of you and I don't share. I don't think any woman could share her husband and still have any self-respect unless it's one of those open relationships and I'm not going for that. So, what do you want to do?"

He was nervous, feeling as if his whole life depended on the answer. "I don't know. Look at our kids, history and life together. I can't decide."

She shook her head. "If you can't decide, that means you already have."

"I guess I have," he acknowledged with a nod.

"Yeah, your mind is clearly with her already. When you got that call from her before surgery, I think you saw your time with her flash before your eyes a. God forbid but I don't want something else to happen to her while you're here and she's there alone. It'll require more than just a hospital visit..." she said. "I made peace with us not being together the first time around and I was okay with it but then the thing happened with Jojo and if you were willing to try again, so was I."

"I tried, don't ever think I didn't but I guess it's true that when it's gone, it's gone. Trust me, if the reconciliation would've been a success I would've been happy to live out the rest of my days here with you and the kids," he replied. "Speaking of kids, what are we going to do about Jojo?"

"I'm sure she'll be upset just like the last time but eventually she'll get over it. You told her that you'd always be here but I think you'll just have to show her and she'll be convinced."