Youngjae wakes up enjoying the beach sand Mark's parents lend a visit even tho they are from LA they are like a family to all the members too and they are glad Mark is welcoming them to the family.
"Are you okay Youngjae?" Papa Tuan said and Youngjae smile
"I been stressing everyone Appa" Youngjae replied and he gets a tap on his shoulder
"They aren't you know they will do everything to make you feel better don't look at a negative way Youngjae it won't help you" Appa Tuan said yes they called him Appa Tuan and they doesn't mind tho.
"Appa you been there for us but my parents never even lend me time I been writing this song for them but when I called I heard them arguing so the lyrics became as worst as what I feel right now I want to make music but my music is the one making me feel like this" Youngjae said and Appa Tuan ask him to sit they been talking a lot and they are having a one on one talk Youngjae been like that and No one can imagine him being like this.
"The members are getting worried they never imagine you like that especially Mark he maybe a prankster but he obviously miss your smiles heal your heart first Youngjae before healing your mind we are waiting for a more better and more happy Youngjae even it will takes time" Appa Tuan said and Youngjae smile and nods.
"Do you want to visit your parents?" Appa Tuan ask him
Maybe that will heal him when he finally get his parents.
"Youngjae hyung is calling you" Yugyeom said and I never answer I just sigh
"Thanks Appa I will remind myself about what you said thanks for the time" I said and headed into JB hyung's room.
"Youngjae let's talk" He said and I sat on his bed he hates when I sat on his bed when I forgot to take shower but now hyung never push me he look at me directly.
"Okay first I want to know why are you using Omegle?" He ask and Youngjae low his head.
Youngjae's POV
"No one is discrimanting you here Jae you can tell me okay" He said
"Because I doesn't want to get your attention you guys are very busy and never even imagine you sleeping Bambam and Yugyeom been together forever, Mark hyung, Jackson hyung, Jinyoung hyung and You are always together no one was there for me my parents never even remember me I was bad and I doesn't want to get your attention because I don't deserve it meeting you on Omegle is a blessing even tho I haven't know you yet I still able to talk to someone he was like a real hyung he mind my health he was so kind he thinks of me having a friends Yes we are been together but having any single of attentions makes me feel like Oh Youngjae is alone he was alone because he doesn't have friends" I said and I had a mental breakdown in front of him he gives me a brotherly hug
"I made a song the song became a monster because I want to send it to my parents but I heard them fighting over nonsense things you been so tough hyung because you can still be you after what happen to your parents but me I can't because the monster eat my soul" I said and while crying he just pat my head slowly until I fell asleep I am already tired from this bullsh*ts happening to me.
But I don't know how to stop because I am already a monster!
