Dark Virtue

Chapter 34: Headache

      My brain was throbbing, chest was heaving up and down, eyes were cloudy, I felt like dying. So many images and conversations were running through my head and it was impossible to grab onto a single one. "The pills aren't helping" I shook my head and he placed his hand over my forehead. "Whatever they were drugging me with is wearing off and these after effects are not fun." It still hasn't settled in my head that I was actually kidnapped. Actually nothing has settled in my mind since my mind is all over the place. "Shouldn't that be a good thing" it's was a half and half situation on if this was a good thing or not.

      "What if whatever I forgot was better left off in the past?" Some things are forgotten for a reason "you just don't want to face the pain you felt when you parents died." My head snapped back so roughly I thought it would break. "You really don't hold back do you" Kevin looked into my eyes with sadness and pity. An emotion I'm pretty sick of seeing. "You know I'm not an idiot" I'm beginning to find that questionable "you haven't remembered everything and you don't want to because you want to hide what you really feel. News flash Thana running from your emotions will only land you in worse situations." Of course a child didn't want to remember the death of their parents. Not only did I find them but I was last one to see my father alive. "I can tell" everything was jumbled up in a messy ball of uncomfortable confusion. 'Who kidnapped me anyways' a question playing in my mind since I was able to get away. There was no reason that I could think of for someone wanting to kidnap me.

      "You ever get a feeling something really bad is going to happen" There was a seriously sickening feeling forming in my stomach. The kind of feeling you get hearing terrible stories about killers or clowns. Actually add killer clowns to that list as well. "Only once, I got that feeling the day you disappeared" my mind was trapped between two sets of memories and I'm not even sure if those are memories. What I could remember wasn't much and there were memories that I could see but couldn't grasp onto. The confusion is what was causing this massive headache I'm having. Nothing was working for it because all I had to do was be calm but in my current state that's nearly impossible. "Just stop stressing so much" heights weren't really my thing either so that was also a factor. But it also wasn't something that would cause my head to hurt this much.

      "I'm going to go to the bathroom" standing up I walked away bringing a small bag with me. Walking into the bathroom I went straight to the mirror. Maybe I just need to rinse off my face. "SHIT" nothing else could leave my mouth but that. There was nothing else to say about everything. "Everything is so messed up" I'm not even 20 yet and it was like I'd been suffering for three lifetimes. The confusion in my mind was tearing the little sanity I had left apart piece by piece. My eyes look so dead "what the hell" my brain was so exhausted I thought my eyes looked black for a second, I definitely need some sleep. "I'm absolutely loosing my fucking mind" that was the only logical solution. That was the only logical explanation I could think of to explain why I suddenly became a semi-murderous teenager back at that place, or why I'm seeing my eyes turn black.

      Leaving out the bathroom I walked back to my seat and laid my head on Kevin's shoulder. "Why does my life suck so much" he patted my head and sighed "maybe in some twisted world you were just fated to suffer." Wow that makes me feel so much better thanks for the great words. "You know a good friend would tell me that it's all in my head and things would get better." Kevin pulled out his phone and unlocked it showing a picture of us when we were little. "I've known you for years I'm basically your brother. I'm supposed to be honest with you." Can we please get off of this plane now it's starting to get really stuffy in here? Maybe it wasn't even the plane. Once I took a step off of the plane the scent of burning flesh went through my nose but nothing was around us. "You good Thana" probably not "I'm great let's go."

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