!!!SELF HARM WARNING!!!
!!!SLIGHT GORE WARNING!!!
!!!ANGST!!!
!!PLEASE DO NOT READ IF THIS MAY TRIGGER!!
!!!!IM REALLY WARNING YOU!!!!
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He really messed up... he starts to feel something rise inside of him, something he hasn't felt in a long time. "I don't deserve it. I don't deserve his love" he repeats to himself as he sits on his bed. "You're horrible" "Bully!!" He starts hyperventilating, "You're a monster" he looks down at his scarred arm they lead all the way up to to his mid forearm. These scars are not from training, theses are from his own villains. "You don't deserve him". These words get repeated in his head. They soon fill up his thoughts. Those intrusive thoughts repeat in his mind over and over again till he can't take it anymore. Maybe just one will make the thoughts go away. Just one, it will heal up fast and no one will notice. He rummages through his drawers for something he never thought he would again. He pulls out the shiny object and slices through. Not very deep. Just enough. But it's not enough. 2. 3. He can't stop.
He cleans himself up along with the blade and tucks it away. He also spreads a bit of Neosporin on his newer wounds in hopes they mostly clear quickly. Unfortunately he has done this before a very long time ago. Both his parents know about it so they usually know what's under a wrist wrap. He even told Ei once but at that time he was clean mostly because of the red haired sunshine... He really cant allow himself to hurt Eijiro anymore than he already has. He just can't. The problem is, how could he love someone... when he can't even love himself.....
~~On the other hand~~
Kirishima says his good nights to kastuki. He curls up in a ball and starts sobbing. The pain in his chest becomes more and more painful, almost like something is clawing inside of his lungs. He continues to sob utill he starts coughing and choking till finally... a rose petal falls from his mouth......
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FanfictionPhoto by satur_nya on tumblr Kirishima and bakugo have been dating for a few months now and Kirishima finally excepts he loves Bakugo. But to his dismay Bakugo has troubles with loving himself, let alone others !!!WARNINGS!!! -mentions of self har...
