A cliché with a gay twist

05

Friday 8:01 am

Ben, Jonah, me and some other guys from our class are walking to the boys dressing room. Of fucking course we've got PE the first two periods. Party, right?

I quickly get dressed and wait for Ben. He's so slow. But he has great abs, so I'll forgive him. God, he's so hot, but like cute as fuck at the same time. And the thing is, he thinks he's not. Like a lot of guys know they're hot, so they act like that, but Ben is pretty insecure and really introverted around everyone, except me, Sarah and Jonah. Ben could get any girl he'd want, he's cute, hot, tall, sweet and he smells great. Fuck, he's perfect. I have to stop thinking about things that'll never happen.

We walk out of the dressing room and see a bunch of goals and a soccer ball in the middle. That's not that bad. I hope Ben and I can be on the same team. We make a great team in soccer. Our previous PE teachers definitely knew that after a while, because we were always chosen to make the teams so we wouldn't be on the same one. Luckily, the new teacher chooses a girl and a boy and Ben and I get on the same team.

8:39 am

We've been playing for a while and Ben and I have scored six times now. Told you we make a good team. Plus, the keeper sucks. No offense Jessica. 

Ben has the ball and I sprint along with him at the other side of the field. He passes it when someone runs towards him and I continue running with the ball. When we're almost at the goal he runs forward and I pass it to him. He shoots and... scores! Seven. 

We run to each other and do a bro hug thingy. God, you have no idea how bad I want to kiss him instead of hugging. Like, right now, in front of everyone. I wouldn't even care. But he doesn't like me, so that would be pretty awkward.

12:44 pm

"I really really need to pee." Jonah says when we're sitting at a table outside.

"Then go." Sarah says. 

"I'll go with you. I have to go too." Ben says and they walk out of the cafeteria. I take a sip from my coke. 

"Are you gay, Tom?" Sarah asks out of nowhere and I almost choke on my coke. 

"What? Why would you ask?" I say, but I'm pretty sure my red cheeks and my near suffocation already gave it away. 

"I was just wondering. It would kinda make sense I guess. You know what- never mind, I never asked." She says. 

"Yes. You're right, but please don't tell anyone. No one knows yet. I haven't even told Ben, because..."

"You're in love with him." She finishes my sentence. Fuck. She knows. 

"God." I groan and I let my head fall onto my arms. "How did you know?" I ask and I feel Sarah sliding closer and she puts her arm around my shoulders. 

"The way you look at him." She says, "You should tell him." She whispers. I look up and rub my face. 

"I know, but I just- I can't. It'll ruin everything."

"Why don't you tell him you're gay first. See how he reacts. I'm sure he doesn't mind." She says. Sarah always knows a way to reassure people. 

"Thank you." I say. 

"For what?"

"For being you." I answer. 

okay so i'm supposed to sleep rn, but i really can't and i'm full of energy and idk why bc during the day i can barely stay awake and i walk around like a zombie and then at night i get all productive and active, but anyways hope you like it so far! the next part is gonna be fun ;)