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"emmy, i wanna ask you about something..."
i started getting anxious. it's probably just something normal, i need to calm down. i nodded to show him that he can say it.
"you know how Madelyn always say we're cute together and that we should just date? do you maybe think it could happen?"
did i hear him wrong? did I misunderstood? he just asked me if us dating could happen.. my mouth hangs open.
i am just starting to trust him more as a friend. i don't have feelings for him. yet?
"what do you mean gray?" still unsure of his means.
"i like you."
shit.
at that moment, i wish i could search how to reject someone. but it wasn't possible.
how do i say it without hurting him..
"grayson.. i-..i don't really think of us that way. maybe i just need time.. i'm sorry.." i waited for his reaction, i didn't know what to expect.
his expression drapes down into an upset and disappointed look. i didn't mean to hurt him. but i truly don't have feelings, what was i supposed to say.
where's madelyn when I need her.
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i mean what did i expect her to say?
"i love you too grayson" "let's date grayson"
obviously not. now it's just gonna be awkward. i should've stopped myself. i should've known the confessing to crush things only happen in stories and not real life.
"oh it's okay em. i'm taking a walk. goodnight"
"wait before you leave. may i ask. why?"
"many things emila. you're a really good person i mean you're smile, you're eyes. i get butterflies when i think of you sometimes."
"anyways imma go"
i try my best to shoot a smile. then left. i closed the door and just stood there, frozen,
can't believe i just told her all that.
i don't know where to go. i don't know why i'm so disappointed. i was a jerk, i probably still am.
who is gonna actually Love me.
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after he left i immediately called madelyn.
she surprisingly picked up pretty quick.
"maddie i don't mean to interrupt you but can you please come right now to our room?"
the line was quiet so i assume she left the party.
"huh? is something wrong?"
"mad, grayson. he- he confessed but i rejected him. he left already. what if something happens to him? he didn't look too happy.."
"HE DID WHAT? IM GOING RIGHT NOW!"
"thank you, mad"
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i walked outside of the hotel, hoping i didn't meet anyone i know.
there i sat right on the bench on the sidewalk right when a couple passes by, returning smiles and kissing each other, eyes filled with lust and love. if only that was me and her.
it's going to be okay. if she needs time then i'm willing to wait. whenever she's ready.
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nadelyn finally arrives. i tell her every single detail about what happened since she left.
"damn. i think you did the right thing. you don't have feelings for him, do u? you can't just lie to please him. look, he'll get over it soon. plus i know you're gonna fall for him one day anyways. mark my words. now let's get sleeping, we have a long day tomorrow."
"mad, what were you doing when i called you?"
"well... i may or may not be going out on a date with ethan when we go back."
"WHAT THE FU- MADELYN"
"yea. he was a pussy so i asked him instead.."
"OMG IM SO PROUD OF YOU DUDE!"
she could not stop smiling and blushing.
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i've been out for a bit, i was deep in my thoughts, convincing myself it's going to be okay. i'll try to make things better from here.
i've got to admit, that was very refreshing but it's time i head back to our hotel room.
ibtry to go in as quietly as possible. on the bed across mine laid emila and madelyn.
i can't help but smiled. she's really beautiful.
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{how'd you react if someone confesses but you don't feel the same way? i'd start freaking out}
-rose
