Art and Life Book 3

GORE WARNING

Read the title!!! This chapter has a GORE WARNING on the art!!

I had to vent because something old came up again and emotions hit and they hit h a r d

Today's message: that flower thing (hanahaki or whatever) would suck to actually experience. How do I know? My own emotions have caused me physical pain tonight; can you imagine throwing up flower petals because your relationship is strained? On top of possibly physical pain, if you've got poor mental health or a strong enough connection? All your characters would thank you kindly to not.
(Yes even after the chapter I'm still in some pain from how I feel, hopefully it'll be okay by morning when I wake up)

I miss her, even still, even when I'm sure she's moved on or she would've said something..

Sandypaw, being dead. Because y'know, that story isn't all flowers and secret meetups and love.

For those who don't know, she gets killed by a pack of dogs, stalling them so Orchidspot can escape. Big Yikes.

While I remember I wanna write down something I remember from my dream last night or this morning. There was this boy, and in the dream the place where I ended up was one where you would forget any suspicious activity that went on after it became clear you were skeptical of it. It was set up like a beach, and I had a group of friends (mostly I remember another boy, he had brown hair and eyes and was shorter than me by a bit I believe) that ended up forgetting, and the brown haired boy was the one who introduced me to the boy I remember well. What made this boy so special? Well, he didn't talk very much and didn't understand what was happening as well as the rest of us, but he had the ability to remember, and I was able to remember as well by staying with him.

He was tall, a good deal taller than me which is saying something because I'm not that far under six feet, and my head only reached about his chest. He had light sandy blond hair, and light eyes that might've been blue, but I don't remember them well enough to be sure. I do think that they were a very light blue if they were blue, almost foggy. His hair was scruffy and free falling, and he was like a child or a puppy other than his energy, if that makes sense?

Take the color from the first picture and a style combination of the second two, and that's what his hair was like (it looked pretty fluffy). But his energy was very different from everything else in the dream.. while I was working to try to save my friends and the rest of the people stuck in whatever the beach place was, he was silent and his energy was a positive, blank, almost protective? or guiding calm. He wasn't stressed by the prospect of saving everyone or even just himself, and he seemed pretty unaware of what was happening despite how important he was in my dream.

He was really comforting to me, and I've never really received energy from someone in my dreams before? So I think he's important somehow; maybe he was one of my guides visiting? Or he could've been even someone like the Archangel Chamuel, which would've made sense with what I felt around him. All I wanted to do was hug him, protect him, and hold him close, but I had to save the place so I took little moments like being under his arm against his chest as enough to get through.

Did I end up saving the place? Well, before I woke up, I did start to! Turns out the beach was a setup by devils, for what goal I'm not sure, but with the blond boy around we were able to get some people to start to remember and realize that things weren't right there at the beach, and we got taken back behind there into a maze with a monster roaming it. We were separated and placed in the maze, and while it was kinda scary I followed a train of blood from one of the monster's previous victims (very recent) because that's the opposite of what most people would do. I had about two close calls before actually using my antigravity (an ability I use a lot in my dreams, when I remember I have it) to go above the maze and find the boy, and I found him by his energy in there! One of the people we were able to help remember died to the monster, I believe, but the boy and I got outside and others we had saved we're fighting the devils and more people were remembering because of it (some of the people were disguised devils but some were real people; I could tell at this point somehow)

I hope I see the boy again tonight, I really do think he's important somehow and he was nice to have in that last dream. I really like him; despite his silence I can tell he's somehow both completely innocent yet also knows a lot, and his energy was so different and a huge comfort.

Heheh, hope y'all enjoyed my dream analysis I guess? I'll try to write if I remember him again but I don't think I'm going to get enough sleep for that tonight..

If you're going to leave someone, let them know so they can give you a proper goodbye and ending.
-Cavy
(10/21/19)