from star to bullies victim

I was pretty, I was cool, I was talented, I was famous all around the world, I was overall amazing but what am I now... Nothing? at least that is what people would say I am. I am worthless, I am a mess, I am a joke, on the nights I cry and on the days I sit on my chair at school dreaming about going back to the past, But unfortunately I can't, I wish time travel machines where already invented.

It all started 6 years ago when I was 10 years old when I decided my life was boring and I wanted a change so me and three of my friends created a girl group I had the positions: main rapper, main dancer, Leader, visual and sub vocal I was basically everything because I was overall well rounded because I started dancing rapping and singing when I was 1 years old and I practiced everyday from then. I had amazing visuals and it was all natural, both of my parents were really good looking and so was I.

We started an instagram account for our girl group, we quickly got 1000 followers so we started a youtube channel and we recorded our first song in my mom's studio that she had used for her job where she recorded podcasts. We uploaded our song on youtube and it got good response, so we got really motivated to continue.

By the time we turned eleven we had released 2 mini albums, one full album and one single. People really enjoyed that we were only 10-11 years old and still was more talented than many adults. In just a year we had gained so much popularity, we had 393 000 followers on instagram and 200 000 subscribers on youtube we also started to earn money from this. People always asked me why i didn't go solo instead because I was so talented that I would fit better as a solo but I always responded that I could go solo but I felt more comfortable with friends around me and it would be lonely to be on stage alone when the bactround dancers were not there.

We soon turned 12 years old and we started going on tv shows and we had more and more tours we also started to go homeschool so we could focus more on our group. And by the way the group was called glow flow and the members are: Sunny, Tina, Lia and Ellinor (me). We had now gotten over 1 million followers on both instagram and youtube.

In the beginning it was so fun but when it became serious and we could get money out of it our parents got really hyped up and pushed us further and further. The press became big and the three other members lost the passion for it so they decided to end their career and go back to a public school. I had plans to continue as a soloist but things took a drastic change.

When I was working on my solo in the studio with my manager the house turned on fire and my manager escaped fast but I got stuck in the house but luckily the firefighters came in time and could save me. When I came out from the fire my hole skin was burned and I was devastated because I thought my life was over if my beauty was gone. The day after the fire I posted the most stupidest thing. While this thing was going around saying that I was in the hospital after fire accident. Many articles that was making people nervous was going around on the internet. My post was a selfie of me where I wrote " I lost my beauty, I am so ugly" and people was happy that I was alive but many people started accusing me because I said I was ugly with burnt skin, they were accusing me for not accepting everyone for who they are but I thought it was stupid since I never said anything bad about someone else. I now felt hated by everyone. I got no nice comments anymore. I was so sad that I deleted my instagram account and went back to public school. People didn't recognize me as Erilor just as the burnt and ugly girl who nobody liked, I got so insecure that I didn't even want to talk with the members. I fell to the bottom, to the darkest time in my life. People called me names and bullied me everyday. I felt so alone because I didn't know that some of my fans were still looking for me and wondered where I had gone, There was people that still cared about me but I didn't know. My parents only cared about the money I made so they were constantly mad at me for not being strong and kept going and they were mad because I didn't make money anymore. I just had to live in hell alone.

after a while I decided to start a new instagram account just to see what was happening on instagram and I uploaded an old photo of me and wrote "I miss the old me". My loyal fans found me after a while and started making me feel happy again.