not who I seem

chapter 5

Stiles POV
Last night was so much fun we ran and played the kids had such a good time after our fun last night I took ramus to his room and Sirius walked me and the kids back to our room yes it's our room the kids refuse to sleep in there dorm room so after that night Sirius and ramus as well as my kids and I had the day off because of the shift it tiers them out so the kids were asleep but I kept feeling off like something wasn't right it's the same feeling I got when the nogitsunia was trying to possess me it was an awful feeling I got up it was about 12 in the after noon I was walking the castle all the kids were at a hogs mead trip so it was mostly empty the feeling kept getting stronger as the day went on and by 5 I was shaking in fear I was hiding in the chamber of secrets went I started to have a panic attack I sent my patronus to Lydia some thing was vary wrong the dark feeling was so strong I was in a cold sweat having a major panic attack I didn't even hear Lydia running to me or her talking to me trying to get me to focus it was so over whelming I started to cry I had only cried three times in my life once when my mom died once after  nogitsunia was exercise from my body and once when I was kicked out of the pack the feeling was so over whelming I couldnt breath she yells and I see ramus and sirius there but I couldn't concentrate after that it was all a blur all I could here was the nogitsunia calling my name i  that deep petrifying voice in my head it's all I could hear all I could focus on i faintly hear screaming and I see Lydia has a scared look on her face I can't hear what she said but it almost seemed as if it was oh no that when it all went black I could move I could speak I couldn't do anything i then saw everything from out side my body like an out of body experience I watched as my eyes were that same yellow they were that day when it took over Lydia backs up and grabs ahold of Sirius and ramus pulling them back I'm screaming but they can't hear me my body moves on its own and I see it I guess the nogitsunia was not completely gone then I speak in that scratchy voice Lydia is crying and shaking from free as she tells them what's going on and what happened to me with the nogitsunia my body was irking evilly at them it was scary to see then it hit me Lydia is a banchee and if I'm correct she will be able to see me or at least here me I grab her hand and she freezes I whisper in her ear " Lydia help me I never told u but when the nogitsunia was possessing me he left a part of him self in side of me it's getting out of control usually I can keep it at Bay with the little chaos I feed it but it wants more u have to save me Lydia please Lydia before my body kills someone scream it will knock him back to it's dark hole in my mind and then I can get control again" the next thing I know Lydia is standing in front of ramus and sirius in front of the nogitsunia she looks h dead in the eyes I here myself say in a scratchy deep evil voice " well we'll well little stiles as new friends wait no not friends mates how interesting I wonder if I kill them will he suffer more oh I do like his pain it's so what the word I intoxicating " lydia looks pissed " u will not have him again " then with out thought she screams Sirius and ramus cover there ears the scream is unlike any a team it's powerful loud calling the time of a death and just for a moment he is distracted so I took my chance and grabbed a hold of my mind and pushed him down what I could see still from out side my body is my body shaking hunched over my eyes flipping back and forth from red to blue I finally get a hold and push him back down my body collapses and I'm in my mind I walk up to the cage holding him and say " u can Not have my body again I won't let u I know how to stop u now there is no way I'll ever let u kill again and as I'm walking away he yells and scream for me to stop I look to him and say what at a  certain things he said about a deal " what did u just say" in the deep scratchy voice he says I'll make u a deal u feed me and I'll give u my strength " I look at him with disgust " I'm not going to kill for u " " no no u don't have to kill any one I can feed off of any form of chaos or pain like the pain ur little mate goes threw on a shift I can take it away im not strong enough to hold a possession over u for vary long so if u feed me I'll lend u my strength and power " I sat down out side his cage and didn't say a word it felt like ours just watching him trying to find a lie or a trick never trust a fox his words " why should I trust u ur the one who even seid never trust a fox " he Huff's and says " I need u to stay alive i have come to the conclusion that if u die I die and im not going to die again so what do u say " I look at him trying to figure him out I take a breath " and say fine " next thing I know a hot feeling comes over me and I wake up in a room im not familiar with but as I look around I pick up the scent of Remus and Sirius and I knew this was there room I calmed down and looked beside me and saw ramus and sirius asleep on either side of the bed my kids were asleep on the floor and I felt a power in my chest I knew it was his power I smile and pet ramus's hair and Sirius's they wake up and look at me shocked and happy the pile on top of me hugging my and kissing my cheek that's when the kids woke up they all yelled mom Lydia was quit so I looked to her and saw her fear I smiled at her and got up pulling her close she flinches and I tell her "it's alright it's me the fox and I made a deal he won't ever hurt any one again it will be alright " she starts to cry and hug me tight she sobbed "mom I was so scared I thought it would take over again and I didn't know what to do "I hugged her tighter and whispered sweet nothings in her ear she finally calmed down and stopped crying I smile and see that it's 4 in the morning I call it a night and that when ramus and sirius grab my hand " stay " is all they said and that's all it took  " "but what about the kids " they smile and say they can stay to so I made a pallet on the floor for the kids  Sirius and ramus pulled me to there bed and I lay in the middle while Sirius is on the right and ramus on the left the kids fell asleep fast and curled into my mates I finally fell asleep peacefully

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