Just Wanna Be Happy

Falling For You Already

Hello everybody and welcome to the story. 

I'm here to tell you a story of friendship, drama, heartbreak, passion, and love. It's one of my favorite stories to tell not because of all the good times, although there are such good times that will cause a smile to be put on your face and a flutter in your stomach. But that's not why I like telling this story. I like telling this story because of the bad times. Sometimes you want to hear you aren't the only one who feels the heartbreak, the loneliness, and the type of sadness that makes you feel like your drowning.

So get comfortable, have something or someone to cuddle up to and be somewhere where no one will bug you.  It's time to start the story.
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Well, scratch that, before I'm starting this story it may be helpful to get to know the characters.  Let's start with Jessica. She's my favorite because I have been with her since the beginning, well not the beginning beginning.  The first memory I have of her is actually the worst day of her life. Or possibly the best. See I can't say for sure because her feelings toward that day changes day to day.  For a while at least, she saw it as the worst and I can see why as that is the day she lost her parents.

Well more accurately her parents lost her. See her parents aren't good parents. They aren't terrible people, well to some they may be considered that, but despite their faults which they definitely have, they did care about Jess. They loved her, just not enough to put her first. And that became an issue when they would have to choose things like go out to the club and leave Jess home alone, buying useless big things over new better fitting clothes for Jess, and worse of all choosing drugs over and over again.

Jess didn't really know this until later in life as she was blissfully unaware for most of her childhood. And then she started to notice the differences between her and her friends. She noticed her friends always had a parent at home with them when she went over, she began to notice that her friends didn't have holes in their clothing, and she noticed none of her friends parents never had bruised arms, never had red eyes, and never kicked her out of the living room and every time she would find her way back they would be passed out and incoherent.

Despite all of this Jess was a constant ray of light. She was always smiling, always had a clever joke, and was nice to everyone. That's why I love her so much, but it is also why no one ever noticed how bad her home life was until it was too late. The first day people noticed was the first day I met her. The day I first met Jess was the day her parents overdosed.

The details are blurry for her to this day. But basically what happened was she came home after soccer practice to find both her parents passed out on the couch, not atypical, but what was different was they didn't immediately tell her to go to her room. No, they didn't respond at all. She called 911 and the next thing she knew she was at the hospital, with a vaguely familiar woman who was telling her she wasn't going back to live with her parents. Instead, she was going to live with a familiar woman.

And that's all you need to know for now. Back to the story!

Jess remembers being there a while before she saw her for the first time. She had already had at least three beers in her. She was playing die with her sister's girlfriend. They had been undefeated all night and she thought it would continue all night because they both seemed to be on top of their game.

Until Lauren sauntered in that is.

Jess remembers the exact moment because it seemed like all eyes went immediately to her. And she was no different. She was taken aback by her beauty, her casual but cool outfit, her tousled wavy dark hair, and her confidence. She's sure she wouldn't have snapped out of if the die didn't hit her in the face and Tobin, her partner shoving her for losing a point. She makes the case she didn't snap out of it for the rest of the party. She missed every throw from then on, missed catches she usually makes when she is much more intoxicated then she is now, all because her mind kept her thinking about what the girl was doing if she should go talk to her if she was watching her play and when she wasn't overthinking she would catch herself staring at the girl.