to start off i want to tell you something, before we get into the goods. so please read this.
i guess this is more of a thank you.
ive been walked over, talked over, ignored, thrown away, left. ive been replaced, used as a replacement. manipulated, guilt tripped, abandoned. its all been wild. ive never truly felt... loved. cared about.
its gotten to a point in my life where im scared to let people in, i either push them away to avoid being hurt or cling to them in hopes they wont leave. usually people hate clingy so they leave anyways. im sort of a shell inside a shell. im fragile and scared, i hide away so nothing ever happens, so i dont get hurt.
im scared of rejection and people abandoning me again, so i dont get close. then you came along. you understood and related to me. you just left your arms wide open for me to fall into. i dont cling to people anymore, i refused but. somehow im stuck on you. im clinging and i dont want to let go, im hoping you wont let go either.
so thank you for keeping your arms open for me. thank you for being you and accepting me for the broken little being i am.
please, dont let go. i havent felt this way in awhile. i dont want it to change...
