Smiles cover the truth

Part 8

Present

Ciara's pov.

I sit on the stairs tears are running down. I can't believe he killed himself. It's so shocking to believe he did it. He was a happy kid, wasn't he?

Sniffing I hear someone open the door. Looking behind me I see Nick. Turning away, I mumble "I want to be alone."

"Well, so do I." he sits down next to me. Looking up at the sky he says he's voice so quiet "Wheres  Kaden,"

"I broke up with him." I say clutching my chest. I shouldn't have did it, because now I didn't lose just one person but two. 

Pulling my knees up to my chest I wrap my arounds them. "Why did he do it, he's life was so perfect?"

"Was it really?" Nick says finally making eye contact with me. He's olive blue eyes piercing through me. 

"Yea," I say it sounding more like an question then an answer. 

"Sad." is he's answer. "He's own sister couldn't tell what he was going through."

"What do you mean?" I say rubbing my nose. 

"This would of never happened if he wasn't so weak," Nick says as if he's trying to anger me.

"He's not weak, he's stronger then you'll ever be." I say started to get mad.

"Physically, not a chance, but mentally." he pauses  "I'm still stronger."

"Who do you think you are?" I say getting up. Facing him I yelled "It's your fault, you left him."

"You would to if you were in my situation, wouldn't you."

"No I wouldn-"

"Yes you would."

"No I wouldn't!!" 

"If anyone it's your fault," he says "You're he's sister you shouldn't have ignored him, but guess what you did." he pauses looking at me. I must have looked ugly all my tears falling down. Making eye contact with me he says coldly "You did nothing."

"I-I," I tried to explain myself but I started choking on my tears.

Wrapping my arms around my chest I give in. I cry, and cry and cry. Cry like no body was here.  

He watches me quietly, he's expression blank. How were him and Travor best friends. One smiled and the other never did.

Sighing Nick gets up. Walking toward me he puts he's arm around my waist pulling me in. Wrapping he's other arm around my back he puts he's chin on my head, staying quiet.

I try to pull away, but I'm to weak. To pathetic. To, everything. 

Putting my arms around he's back I clutch he shirt tightly. Squeezing my face into he's shoulder I  hold on to him tightly. I squeeze and press all my body on him, worried if I don't I might lose my self.

Finally after what seems like ten minuets he pulls me away. He's eyes seem....seem....sincere. I've never seen he's face like that, and I've none him since we were kids. 

Putting he's thumbs on both of my cheeks he wipes away my tears. "I'm sorry." he's voice sounds genuinely kind, like he feels me. Which he does, but he just is hiding it. Like how Travor did. 

"Don't cry," he gets close to my face and smiles. A dimple. A dimple pops up on he's right cheek. Blushing I look down nodding. Wiping my last tears with my sleeves I walk away.

Reaching the lunch table I hear all the noises. All the people. All the fake people. They smile, they laugh, but is that what they feel.

Everybody here fakes smiles just to fit in. Everybody, everybody, but

but-

Nick.