The Fallen Angel || ChaeLisa

Recovering

I would cry at nights and cry again at days. I was restless. I hadn't taken a shower in weeks and I smelled like crap. I hadn't even bothered to look at the mirror and see what I look like. Alice would come to my room sometimes and tries to cheer me up, but I force a smile and she leaves disappointed. With mom's help, I finally go and take a shower. It felt so nice under the warm water. I sat down in the tub and sobbed. Why did it have to be me? Why did he do that to me? Do I look so easy to play with? I hate boys! They're disgusting. (note from author: no offense to any of our male readers) 

Sometimes I think of just killing myself, but then I think of mom and Alice and Lisa and all my friends and I can't bring myself to do it. Mom talked to dad and convinced him to let me have friends over. They think friends can help me get myself together. I was so thankful to mom that I started sobbing on her shoulder when she gave me the news. She hugged me and cried with me. I hate you Emmet Keimig. I hate you. I hope your fiance leaves you. That night, I fell asleep on my mom's lap. It was the first night in almost a whole week that I had a proper sleep. The next morning, mom called Lisa and Eloide over, so I decided to make myself look less miserable. I sat in front of my desk and looked at myself in the mirror. I was only 18, but I looked 28. Tears were building up, but I was tired of crying over that jerk, piece of shit. I grabbed my makeup and started putting it on. My puffy eyes were now covered with makeup and my face looked less pale. I was back to my normal goofy looking self. From now on no boy can break me. 

(okay, so while I was writing this, I was seriously gonna cry. Hotel Del Luna's OST songs were playing in the background in my computer, so I was seriously at the edge of crying.)

Lisa and Eloide came and I put on a smile. Not a fake one. A real one. I wanted to be myself with my friends. Lisa came to my room and closed the door behind us. They both looked at me and Lisa started crying and ran to my arms. I hugged her tightly. She was literally sobbing. I was holding back my tears. I won't cry anymore. Lisa allowed Eloide to hug me too, and Eloide came to my arms with teary eyes. This girl. I've never seen her show any emotion except for shyness. We did a group hug, but still none of us said anything until I sat down with Eloide and Lisa at both of my sides. 

"Idiot, do you know how worried I was and how much I missed you?" It was Lisa.

"I'm sorry Lisa. I'm sorry." I said and hugged her. 

"What happened to our beautiful Roseanne? We all miss you so much." She said and turned away to hide her tears.

I patted her shoulder. 

"Do you mind telling us everything?" Lisa asked cautiously. I hesitated.

"It's more than okay if you don't want to." Lisa said quickly, seeing my hesitation.

"No, no. It's okay." I answered. Now they were both focused on me, so I took a deep breath and told them the entire story. Our love, our secret dates, when my parents weren't home and he would come over. Everything. 

"I'm sorry that I wasn't aware of these things." Lisa said and put her head on my shoulder.

"It's actually my fault. I was played." I said and smiled at her. I went down stairs and asked mom for drinks and some snacks. She handed me a tray. There was three milkshakes, three plates of cake and a plate of cookies. I kissed her cheek and went back to my room.

"Guess what we have here?" I said excitedly.

"Ta-da! You're favorite." I said to Lisa. Then I turned to Eloide.

"I'm sorry Eloide, I didn't know what you liked." I said apologetically.

"It's fine, I like all desserts and snacks." Eloide said and picked up a cookie.

"So, how's school been going?" I asked.

"Awful obviously!" Eloide said and Lisa and I looked at her with shock when she said that and rolled her eyes. I didn't know that she would ever do that.

"What?" She asked innocently and Lisa and I busted out laughing, then Eloide joined us.

We talked and talked for hours, but it felt like minutes. When Eloide gasped and quickly stood up, and pointed to the clock, Lisa and I gasped too. They'd came over at 2p.m and now it was 8p.m. Holy cow. 

"My mom's going to kill me." Eloide said and Lisa and I chuckled.

She hurried and hugged me tight and told me that she'd visit me again. I said goodbye to her and escorted to her to her car. I came back to my room. Now I was alone with Lalice. 

She rushed toward me and kissed me. I was so shocked. She was kissing me so desperately and I couldn't move from the huge shock.