Beach day gone wrong

Just a lonely little emo girl

(I walk upstairs and go pack so we can to the beach)
Damien:Get your ass down here.
(I grab the bag and we get in the car and go to the beach and get our bathing suits on and go get everything laid out and we get in the water and he goes to the bathroom and he comes out and sits down on the towel)
Me:Damien baby why don't you come swim with me?
Damain:Does it look like I care?
(I don't respond and look at him and I sigh and walk farther out and I see a wave coming and Damien walks off and the wave knocks me down and I start drowning and I go under and someone jumps in and grabs my wrist and brings me to shore and lays me down and starts giving me CPR and Damien walks up and I cough up water)
Tommy:You ok?
Me:Y-Yes t-thank you.
Damien:Raven!
(He grabs my wrist and brings me to our spot and I look at him)
Damien:What the hell was that?
Me:I-I...
(He slaps me and I fall down and grab me cheek and I stand up and lash out at him)
Me:I've had it with you hurting me I almost fucking died and you don't even care your nothing but an asshole.
(He balls up his fist and punches me and the person who saved me runs up to me and helps me up)
Tommy:Dude what the hell is wrong with you?
Damien:She's my girlfriend I can do whatever the fuck I want to her.
(I start crying and he looks at me)
Tommy:That's a fucking crime that's domestic violence.
Adam:What's going on here?
Damien:Great another one.
Tommy:You can't just hit a girl what's wrong with you?
(Damien slaps me and I fall down and I start crying)
Tommy:Adam take her back over there.
(He helps me up and we walk over to their spot and I sit down and pull my knees up to my chest and start crying and I hear the same person yelling at Damien and a few seconds later he walks up to us)
Tommy:Ma'am are you ok?
Me:I-I-I'm fine.
Tommy:Ma'am why would he do that to you?
Me:J-Just leave me alone.
Adam:Ma'am look if he does those things to you you need to tell the police.
Me:I SAID LEAVE ME ALONE!
Adam:I'm sorry.
Me:Look my life was always fucked up that's what I am a fuck up no matter what I do I can never do it right everyone just makes fun of me cause I'm emo I-I'm sorry.
(I stand up and go into the bathroom and I feel arms wrap around my waist and a few seconds later I feel pain all over my body and an hour later Damien leaves and a woman walks in and sees me laying there)
Ashley:Ma'am are you ok do you want me to call an ambulance?
Me:I-I'm fine.
(She leaves and brings someone back with her)
Tommy:Ma'am are you ok?
Me:I-I'm fi...
(I pass out and he picks me up and carries me to his car and lays me down in the back seat and a few hours later I wake up and notice it's night out and start asking myself if this is all a dream)
Me:My head what happened?
Ashley:I found you in the bathroom on the boardwalk at the beach you passed out so me and my friends decided to take you to one of our places since we didn't want you to go back to your ex.
Me:Ex?
Ashley:Your boyfriend said he broke up with you.
Me:I need to be left alone for a while.
(I look out the window and sigh and I end up in my own little world and I start singing)
Me:I'm always so alone even when surrounded by people that I know I'm always so astounded by my ability to ruin everything losing friends and starting fires everyone thinks I'm a liar I always stay at home cause I'm not good in public I sit here on my phone I'm always disappointed I watch them live their lives I wish that I were happy victim if my generation time machines can not erase it who am I supposed to be when will I be complete when will they be proud of me it's getting harder to see slit my wrists bloody fists questioning why I exist pain persists evil fucking up my life to shit I'm worthless I'm worthless I'm worthless slit my wrists until I bleed out I try to stay strong no what I do I'm always in the wrong it never gets easier but maybe that's the point it's part of growing up messing up and learning from it that's just life it's necessary clinging to hope what else is there to live for got nowhere to go what else is pain good for I am confident that your life has purpose it's okay you will get through it don't give up cause someone needs you who am I supposed to be when will I be complete when will they be proud of me it's getting harder to see slit my wrists bloody fists questioning why I exist pain persists evil gifts fucking up my life to shit I'm worthless I'm worthless I'm worthless slit my wrists until I bleed out please don't give up gotta stay strong gotta move on gotta know hope when you feel low please you gotta know that someone needs you please don't give up gotta stay strong gotta move on gotta know hope when you feel low please you gotta know that someone needs you slit my wrists bloody fists questioning why I exist pain persists evil gifts fucking up my life to shit I'm worthless I'm worthless I'm worthless slit my wrists until I bleed out I'm worthless I'm worthless I'm worthless slit my wrists until I bleed out.
(I look into my bag and grab my phone and head phone and look up some videos and the car stops and I take out my headphones)
Tommy:Who's hungry?
Adam:I definitely am.
Ashley:I could eat.
Isaac:Dido.
Monte:Yeah.
Tommy:Ma'am.
Me:I-I'm not hungry.
Tommy:Ma'am you need to eat something.
Me:I'm not hungry ok just drop it.
Tommy:Ok well let's go inside and order something and I can take you guys home.
(They get out and go inside and I look in my bag and pull out razor blade and start cutting my wrist and a few seconds later I put it away and wrap the cuts and everyone gets in and he starts backing out and I start talking to myself)
Me:Why am I even alive everyone hates me I'm nothing I'd be better off dead there is no hope for me.
(I pull my knees up to my chest and I sigh and start singing)
Me:Soaked to the bone and sink like a stone walk home alone it's not the first time it's not the worst crime your soul will be ok and you've had enough searching for love and you miss the touch of someone new burned by your dream it's never how seems cold crushed esteem take and hide forever your soul will be ok and you've had enough searching for love and you miss the touch of someone new and you've had enough searching for love and you miss the touch of someone new soaked to the bone and sink like a stone I will take you home it's not the first time it's not the worst crime our souls will be ok.
(I look at my wrist and ball up my fist and punch the window and start crying and he stops the car and I start talking to myself)
Me:Why do I have to be on this planet why can't I just die I'm nothing.
Tommy:Ma'am are you ok?
Me:I tell everyone I'm fine but on the inside I'm dead why do I exist no one has ever cared about me.
Tommy:There are people out there who cares about you you just have to find them.
Me:I'd love to know where to look.
Tommy:Look ma'am just forget about your ex it won't help.
(I chuckle then sigh)
Me:Forget how can I forget what he did to me?
Tommy:Just think of something that make you happy.
Adam:Tommy.
Me:You mean killing myself I feel like that's the only solution right now.
Tommy:Ma'am killing yourself is never the right solution.
Adam:Tommy leave her alone she's upset right now.
Me:How would you know your not emo?
Tommy:Look I'm trying to help you but your being...
Me:Being what?
Tommy:Difficult your being difficult.
Me:Well it looks like we have that in common.
Tommy:How am I being difficult I'm...
Adam:Tommy that's enough.
(We stop arguing and he starts driving again and I sigh and apologize to him)
Me:Look sir I'm sorry I got mad I just have alot on my mind right now.
Tommy:It's fine I shouldn't have gotten an attitude towards you I'm sorry.
Me:I just don't understand why I'm here I'm a lonely little emo girl that everyone makes fun of.
Tommy:Not everyone makes fun of you.
Me:I did everything for him and he still hurt me he said I was part of a cult said I'm worthless said that I deserve to die I wish I was.
Adam:Why would he say that?
Me:I don't know I never did anything wrong.
Tommy:Just don't pay attention to him that's what he wants it's just fueling him.
Me:I just wanna know what I did to make him hate me.
Tommy:Look how about this after I drop him off you can come stay with me.
Me:You don't know me though.
Tommy:I know you well enough to know that you won't hurt me.
Me:Thank you.
Tommy:What's your name?
Me:Raven Rivera.
Tommy:I'm Tommy this is Adam.
Me:Thank you for helping me with Damien.
Tommy:Your welcome Raven.
(He drops him off and an hour later we arrive at his house and I grab my bag and we go inside and he shows me the room I'll be staying in and I look at him)
Tommy:It's not much.
Me:Better than sleeping on the floor.
Tommy:If he comes anywhere near my house or you I'll call the police ok just get some rest.
Me:Thank you.
(He smiles and I go into the room and I shut the door and I look into my bag and I pull out the razor blade and start cutting my wrist and start crying and a few seconds later I put the blade away and wrap my wrist with a bandage and I lay down and fall asleep and in the morning I get woken up)
Tommy:Raven come on Raven wake up I got some news.
Me:5 more minutes.
Tommy:Come on Raven it's gonna make you happy.
(I sit up and stretch and rub my eyes and I look at him)
Me:What is it?
Tommy:It's 2 things actually the first is that Adam called he said he got a call from the producers we're going on tour I asked Adam if you could come with us he said yes.
Me:W-What about D-Damien?
Tommy:That's the other part Damien got a new girlfriend he started abusing her but she wouldn't take that she pressed charges against him and he got arrested.
Me:S-So he's in j-jail.
Tommy:Yes you don't have to worry about him hurting you.
(I unwrap my wrist behind my back and I show him the cuts and I look at him)
Me:He might not be able to hurt me but I can hurt myself.
Tommy:Sweetie were you cutting?
(I look at the floor he kneels down in front of me and I look at him and he places a hand on my cheek)
Tommy:Sweetie please if you need to talk I'm here you don't have to hurt yourself.
Me:I can't help it I can't seem to get my mind straight.
Tommy:I'm here if you want to talk just let me know.
Me:Thank you again Tommy.
Tommy:Your welcome Raven now let's go get your clothes and get packed.
(He hugs me and we go to my house and grab my clothes and get packed and we go back to his house and go inside and see someone standing there and I hide behind Tommy)
Liz:Who is she?
Tommy:I told you not to come near me.
Liz:Who is she?
Me:If I may...
Liz:No you may not shut up you little brat.
(I run upstairs and go into my room and shut the door and go into my bag and pull out a razor blade and start cutting my wrist and start crying and the door opens and Liz walks up to me)
Liz:Give me that god damn blade.
(She snatches it away from me and I start getting mad and I stand up)
Me:Give it back.
Liz:What are you gonna do cry you little crybaby.
(I turn into a wolf and attack her and a few seconds later back off and turn back into a human)