The Way He Saw Things | Lil Peep

Chapter 2 - The Party

If I'm being honest, I'm not very excited about the party tonight. I want so bad to meet Peep, but I'd played him up so much in my head that I didn't know how I could ever interact with him, let alone if he doesn't meet my expectations of what he's like.

The party is at the "Goth Boi Mansion" as they like to call it. The boys come and go, sometimes it's only one or two of them staying there, sometimes all of them. That night them and their additional friend were gonna have a party, and I was invited. Of course I was excited, I was friends with most of them and I loved parties. But I had never met Lil Peep, weird considering the massive crush I have on him. I started listening to his music in 2016, when I met Lil Tracy. Tracy introduced me to their friends but he never introduced me to Gus because I was so nervous.  At this point I'm basically avoiding meeting him.

I really do love him and his work, but the fact that he might not be how I imagine him freaks me out. What if he's a douche and I can never listen to him again? To be honest I might not even meet him tonight, but Tracy and Wicca knew how big of a crush I have on Gus, so they'll probably make a point to embarrass me.

Tracy pulled up to the house. Him, Wicca, and I had been on a quick run to the grocery store to get some of the drinks and snacks for tonight. I knew Peep might be in the house right now, the boys were aloud to show up to the house any time they wanted for the party.

"You know he might be in the house right now." Tracy laughed, turning off the engine and looking at me. He stated my thoughts. I felt my cheeks get red and Wicca turned to look at me too.

"I know, but what if he isn't like I think he is. I've built him up so much in my head." I said, turning off his music and unplugging my headphones. I could feel my heart rate growing as we all got out of the car. Wicca grabbed the groceries and laughed at how nervous I clearly was. "Shut up man." I said, shaking my hands anxiously.

"We wouldn't be friends with an asshole, trust me." Wicca said, I laughed.

"I don't know how much I trust that."

"Get ready to find out." Tracy says as he opens the door. Almost immediately we hear Gus's loud voice echo around the tall house. Wicca sets the groceries down as Tracy and I walk into the living room. I'd been in the house before, multiple times actually, but I'd never been there while Peep was there, so I stuck to walking behind Tracy. On the couch Coldhart, Horsehead, and Layla were sitting watching Gus, who was putting on some type of show on the coffee table.

"Hey, asshole, come give me a hug." Tracy says, getting Gus's attention. He jumps off the coffee table and mumbles happy greetings into Tracy's shoulder as they hug. "This is Max, we've all told you about her." Tracy says. His eyes glint as Peep looks at me.

"Hey ma, I've heard good things about you!" He daps me up and smiles. I smile back, immediately after I know my smile was too big and obnoxious because of Tracy's snickers. Gus walks off to go see Wicca and I plop down on the sofa, greeting my other friends.

      People slowly file in and after an hour or so the house is full of people. The air is dense with smoke and the smell of weed, mostly from the couch where I sat with a group of people I didn't know. The joint came to me and I examined the room as I take a hit. My eye catches on Peep as I blow out, he's got his arm around some girl while chatting with a group of people.

      Not my problem, I remind myself, and take another hit before I pass the joint. I don't even feel like I need to move off this couch if he's just gonna have a girl with him all night.