Stephen's phone buzzed as he rolled over in his bed. He groaned and turned it on, flinching at the sudden flash from the screen in his face. Squinting, he looked through his notifications, most of them being from YouTube and random messages. One specific text catches his eye.
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'Hey, ru awake?' |
- Jay |
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Stephen's cheeks blossomed a faint blush at the sight of Jay's name. He checked the time. His phone read 3:44.
S: Ya, Wyd?
J: Tryin to sleep
S: Same
J: Oh, did I wake u?
Stephen sat up and leaned up against his wall.
S: Nah, I've been up this whole time
Stephen lied, trying not to make Jay feel bad.
J: do u want to Face Time?
Stephen's stomach filled with butterflies and did a flip.
S: If u want to
"I need to stop picking up my phone at night" Stephen muttered to himself as he tried to wipe the sleep out of his eyes before Jay started calling. Stephen saw the familiar screen appear that showed Jay's attempts to contact him. Stephan smiled warmly and answered.
"Hey Stephen," Jay said. He was sitting up with a blanket across his shoulders and rested on his head like a hood. Stephen let out a soft giggle. "You look ridiculous" he remarked. Jay laughed. "You don't look any better, Stephen" he retorted.
The both shared a laugh quietly not to wake anyone else. "But really, Jay, you look like you have something to get off your chest" Stephen noticed, and his tone became serious. On Jay's end of the screen, he was losing so much sleep and only thinking of one thing.
He kept thinking about how much he wished he could be right next to Stephen. How much he missed his company. But most of all, he thought of how Stephen was the closest person to a second Jay. Vice versa for Stephen as well.
"Oh, it's nothing...." Jay bluffed, when he knew that it really hurt inside. "I'm fine" Stephen couldn't stand to see Jay that way and knew something was wrong. "No, you're NOT fine. What's wrong? You know you can talk to me." Stephen pushed.
Jay's smile faded. He called Stephen so he would be able to tell Stephen his feelings and overall just vent, but now, Jay was losing his confidence. He turned away and wiped a tear from his eye, not wanting to show weakness in front of Stephen.
"This was a bad idea, Stephen. I'll just go..." Jay sniffles. "No wait!" Stephen said, worried he had hurt Jay. "Please don't go Jay, I'll stop, I swear" he pleaded. "Jay rubbed his tears out of his eyes. "Please don't cry, Jay. I'm sorry" Stephen cooed. "It's not just that I can't sleep...." Jay said finally. Stephen looked at him with confusion. "It's the fact that I don't WANT to sleep" Jay admitted.
Stephen let out and inaudible gasp of shock. "What? Why? Are you having night terrors? Nightmares? Oh god, are you getting sleep paralysis!? You do know that this will take a major toll on your mental health, right? " Stephen cried, without letting Jay speak. "Stephen..... Stephen, STEPHEN!" Jay managed to say between Stephen's ramblings.
"S-sorry," Stephen stuttered. "What were you going to say?"
Jay laughed a bit and smiled. "I've been having dreams about you" Jay muttered quickly. "Wait why is that a bad thing?" Stephen scoffed. "I'm awesome" he joked. Jay snickered. "Yeah, you are. It's a problem because......" Jay trailed off.
Stephen shifted uncomfortably and nudged Jay to continue. "I ... uhm... I kind of .... wish I was closer to you" Jay managed to say. Stephen frowned in confusion. "I've been dreaming of US more than just you. And now I................. I miss you! Okay?" Jay was really struggling to get out what he was trying to say. Stephen cheeks deepened into soft red blush.
"Jay... what are you saying?" Stephen asked, hoping he knew what was about to go down. Jay sighed. "I know that love has treated you so wrong and you never have anyone special in your life for too long so..... I want to be true to you instead of them." Jay looked at the blushing mess in front of him. Stephen tried to say something but just said a bunch of gibberish.
"I wish I could go visit you, but with my lack of sleep, I'm scared I'll fall asleep on the road and die before I get to you" Jay giggled. Stephen collected himself and smiled. "Then I guess I'm coming to you!" Stephen yelled triumphantly. "No! Please don't! My place is a wreck!" Jay begged, laughing uncontrollably. "Well mine is too!" Stephen snorted. "God, you're driving me crazy!" Jay shouted in laughter.
After they both stopped laughing, and everything cooled down, Stephen smirked. "I'm glad we had this talk, I just want you to know that I will always be one call away if you need to talk again, alright?" Stephen smiled. Jay sighed. "Do you like me back?" He asked. Stephen blushed. He did, he really did, but he didn't want to keep Jay awake a night thinking about his lover was so far away anymore.
'What am I thinking!?' Stephen thought to himself. 'That's the stupidest reason ever! Just tell him you idiot!' He tried to convince himself to gather the courage to say yes, but nothing. Jay took the hesitation the wrong way, and the tears started to well up in his eyes again. "O-oh, I see...." Jay muttered lazily. "At least you know now" Jay tried to say with a happy tone, but the tears streaming down his face made Stephen feel horrible for waiting.
"Nnnonno no no!" He said quickly. "I didn't say anything Jay!" Stephen cried out. "It's just that-" Jay cut off Stephen "what? What do you mean then? You don't need to lie for my 'mental health' Stephen" He snapped. Stephen watched the sadness drain out of Jay's face and replace with rage. Stephen took in a deep breath.
"I know sometimes I make you feel insane, I'm sorry but that's just how I play this stupid game. I can't act like a child and disobey all that you want from me and that you say I'M SORRY, baby. Just, don't cry. I can't stand to see you like that." Stephen cried, tears filling his eyes as well. Jay wiped his eyes. "Please, Stephen I'm trying to be ultra mega happy and show you my smile." Jay continued for Stephen. They both giggled and went on together. "And send you my feelings!" Jay stopped for a second.
"And FUCK! It is so hard being so damn far!" Stephen laughed. "I guess I'll just stay here and... staying singing in my room?" Stephen giggled before going on. "I'll sing in my room" The two boys smiled and kept singing together.
"I've been dreaming about you, oooh ooh. I've been wishing I was next to you, oooh oh. I've been dreaming of us, ohh oh. I've been thinking this is not a need or a must but..."
Jay took the next part by himself. "I've been waiting on you, oooh ooh. I've been waiting for you to tell me those three words too, cause I've been hoping it's true, oooh ooh, that one day I'll feel like I am something real for you"
Stephen smiled. "I love you" he said right before hanging up. Jay was startled by the sudden affection and put his phone back on his nightstand and rolling himself in his blanket and settled back into his bed, closing his eyes and trying to sleep again, knowing that he was loved, even if he was far.
Stephen laughed to himself and put his phone on the charger. At the same, in two different places, the two boys whispered........
"I love you"
"WHY ON EARTH ARE YOU BEING SO LOUD STEPHEN!!???" screams Hosuh from another room.
(1334) words. Song Artist: Limbo
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FanfictionMostly Jay x Stephan and Stephan x Hosuh lol Sorry I haven't been working on anything, I'm just in some dark place right now. I'll probably get back on track after Halloween 2019. I'm working on a good cover for this and it should be done soon