unknown number [h.s.]

day thirty two

xxxii.

10:43 a.m.

Wall-e: So when are you gonna tell me who you are?

Me: When you guess and get it right

Wall-e: That’ll take foreverrrrrrr

Me: Hopefully

Wall-e: Why hopefully?

Me: ‘Cause, I’m scared.

Wall-e: Of?

Me: That you’ll be mad and not want to speak or see me ever again. Like who you acted the first time, you never really told me why, you just shut me out like we didn’t even know each other and like I was just a stranger. Like what we’d been through never meant anything to you and that you just hated me

Wall-e: I shut every one out, don’t take it personally

Me: Well I did. And I still do

Wall-e: Then why did you call me that first night?

Me: Because I care about you

Wall-e: Why? Like you said I treated you like nothing ever happened, I do that with almost every body

Me: Why?

Wall-e: It doesn’t matter

Me: Of course it matters, Dorothea! It matters to me

Wall-e: I’m scared all right!

Wall-e: Are you happy now?

Me: Scared of what?

Wall-e: I don’t know…

Wall-e: Getting too close to people I guess, making commitments, having friends.

Me: You have lots of friends.

Wall-e: They’re just people I talk to

Me: Oh like Liam?

Wall-e: Let’s not talk about him.

Me: I know what he did to you Thea

Wall-e: How could you possibly know?

Me: It’s not hard to guess, I mean the guy practically admitted it just before I punched him in his damn face

Wall-e: That was you?

Me: Well no one else was going to do it so I said what the hell, he’s a douche all ready might as well just punch him to make sure he knew it too

Wall-e: Who are you?

Me: Guess

Wall-e: I MADE A FUCKING LIST, I ONLY HAVE EIGHT NAMES LEFT

Me: *shrugs*

Me: If you get it right I’ll tell you if you’re right

Wall-e: And if I’m wrong?

Me: You get to try again

Wall-e: Can I ask you a weird question?

Me: Sure

Wall-e: What is your definition of love?

Wall-e: I have to do this project in art that symbolizes love but I’ve never been in love.

Me: I thought you said you loved Harry

Wall-e: It was unrequited

Me: Oh

Me: Well I guess for me, love is when you don’t have to say ‘I love you’. You just kind of know I guess, its when both of you know

Wall-e: Have you ever been in love?

Me: Twice.

Wall-e: Who?

Me: A long time ago, she was my first real girlfriend.

Me: The second girl, I told her that I loved her, but she thought it was just as a friend so when she’d say it back it was as if say ‘cool, I’m hungry’. In my mind I thought about saying it, like really saying it and I just couldn’t. So when I’d date other girls, because I knew she’d never love me back, it was easy saying it to them but I just couldn’t say it to her.

Wall-e: Are you sure you’re a guy?

Wall-e: Or at least heterosexual because that was really deep.

Me: lol

Me: I am very straight, I can assure you that

Wall-e: What happened to her? The second girl?

Me: I see her, walking in the hallways all the time. She doesn’t look at me but she knows I’m there, thinking I don’t think about her but I do.

Wall-e: Do I know her?

Me: I don’t know. Maybe in a different time.

Wall-e: Huh

Me: I was trying to be mysterious but it wasn’t quite working in my favor…

Wall-e: That must have been horrible though

Me: What?

Wall-e: Longing for someone who’d never love you back

Me: Yea, it sucks doesn’t it?

Me: I mean what happened with Harry

Wall-e: We were barely in high school that was nothing

Me: Are you saying that you’re friendship with Harry was nothing?

Wall-e: No

Wall-e: It just didn’t feel requited.

Me: Like longing?

Wall-e: I guess so…..

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i've been watching one tree hill non stop... i never thought i'd like it but if any of you watched gossip girl, watch one tree hill 

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