"The out cast"
Chapter 1:
Have you ever felt like you aren't love? Well I have, I'm always alone and cold no one cares about me no one wants me or loves me only the empty and quiet house I lay in right now.
I am abbanded alone no love my heart is shattered and broken people tear me down every day. I'm ugly fat and worthless. I want to die from all this pain it's worthless to stay. But I know in my heart that I need to stay.
I know that I am here for a reason. I'm not here to be pushed around and be treated like worthless trash I used to think I was so beautiful. But then people started bullying me not physically but emotionally. It got really bad one day I wanted to kill myself.
I had thoughts of suicide for a long time. I even try'd doing it. But I know later on that I will find someone I will, find some one who loves me for me and for who I am. I was taught to stay strong and always believe in myself.
People call me a freak and a suicide freak. I get made fun of all the time. Teachers tell me that I am loved but I always ask "where is the love?" Because I don't fill it. I fill worthless and it's not fareno human being should fill this way. Like I do!
Chapter 2: why?
I always dreamed of being the popular cheerleader that if beyond beautiful. Every guy likes and like worships them. I always pictured me being that.
I was completely wrong I'm the opposite of everything I wanted to be,
1.beautiful
2.tall
3.skinny
4perfect
I'm not any of those I'm 1.worthless
2. ugly
3. not loved
4.not cared about.
5. everyone hates me
and I don't know why.
It always seems to be coming down with that one little word " why "
Why am I here? Why am I not loved? Why am I ugly? Why, why, why? All those girls seem to have the perfect lives and why do I have to have this life? WHY ME
Chapter 3 on line
I mostly get bullied on line on Facebook, twitter all the popular web sites teenagers get on. They make fun of my pictures and they most on my wall
"Why is she here"
"She is worthless"
"She is ugly"
"She is fat"
You know what's funny half of those girls are fatter then me. But they know I hate my life and that I want to die. They hate me and I never can figure out why. I don't do anything wrong.
It's 11.11 every time I wish I always wish for a friend it never comes true look at me now a freak that every one hates. I want to be beautiful on the inside and out.
I really should be getting to bad right now.
Chapter 4 school :(
"BEEP BEEP BEEF BEEP"
The worst sound to here on a Monday morning. Another day of complete hell "SCHOOL" it's like the devils playground to me. Every time I'm there I want to just kill my self. And I have to fill with people that hate me and that make fun of me and the way I dress.
I eat in the bathroom every day by my self. Can you imagine trying to I joy your food while someone is taking a crap in the stall beside you? You probley can't imagine but I can, I eat in the bath room every lunch.
Popular girls come in and talk to me and judge me on what I'm wearing. And they kick the door open and through paper balls at me one time they threw water balloons over the door and it ruined my book and my phone and all my lunch.
Chapter 5 the plastics
