Never Mine

Did Marsh just do it!?

In the car on the way to school

Marsh stretches his hand and touches my palm ,more like Caressing.

"D..dove?are you still mad at me"he glances at me then gazes on the road

I strain a laughter and move my hand  "mmh"

We both remain silent until we get to school

I take my back pack and open the door "Thanks for the ride" close it then leaves for class

Marsh's pov

I sat in the car for as long as I can remember,then  decided to go to class after a session of battling with my thoughts

Heading to class I find the lecture halfway so I had to knock the door.

"Marshall? you're late, do you have any explanation, for this?"

I remain silent ,Everyone was literally staring at me

"Umh?you know  I don't entertain lazy students"

"B..but sir"

"Just leave my class"

That was pretty rude but I have no choice,I  go back to my car and sit on the boot

What's happening to me? why I'm i having  bad luck with everything?

I groan

I spend like another year on the car cursing everything before the bell rings

After 2minutes of watching everyone on the hallway I spot bruv and dove walking together , talking and laughing

What are these two up to?

I gaze at them for a while as they walk before Jan makes me flinch

"HEY!"

I take a deep sigh "Oh come on babe ,you scared me"

I pull her into a hug and hold on to her like I wasn't planning to let go

I'm i jealous, already?it's too soon to be, but as a matter of fact I can't help but hurt..

She rubs my back then asks "Are you ok honey?"

"I'm ok, just having a bad day"

We break off  from the hug ,I go the front passenger sit and open the door  " get in"

"Where are we going Marsh?"

"I'm driving you home,where else?"

She gives me a worried look "Ted left,I'm all alone at home,don't you think it's too soon for me to go home"

I pat her shoulder "it's ok ,I can spend sometime with you"

I start the engine and drive off

She gazes at me with a smile "R.. really?"

"Of course"

                   ******

"We are here"

We get off the car and enter the house

"Marsh can I get you anything?"

"Just water please?"

"Ok"

What can bruv and dove be doing right now? should I call bruv and find out, what if dove thinks I'm getting jealous? she doesn't know I like her.. huh?!wait , yesterday she saw me with bruv but only called him to help her then refused my offer ,I saw them embracing each other often yesterday, today I saw them talking and laughing, could they be dating?!I have to stop them ,dove doesn't deserve a guy like bruv,I know him so well , what if he wants to use her?

Jan gives me an awkward gaze

"Jan Why are you staring at me ?"

"Are you ok Marsh?you have just been staring in space,is there anything bothering you?"

I take the glass of water and sip

"I'm ok baby shake"I smirk

She thinks about something and asks "Is it about you getting late for class?"

"No , that's nothing I can't handle,come"I grin

She crosses and sits besides me "Then what is it ?"

"Ummh..do you think bruv and dove could be dating?"

"I think so ,I have seen them so close since yesterday,bruv even took ted's sit beside dove today,then they left class together"

I dropped my jaw "R.. really?"

"Yeah" She pauses then continues "Now wait ,why are you concerned about them ?"

I give her a confused look and fake a laughter "Me? concerned?no way ,I was just being curious that's all "

Of course I'm concerned!!!

My heart was beating off my chest at this moment like I was about to pass out

She holds my hand "Babe just let them be,who cares if they date anyway, let's go play a video game in my bedroom"

What do you mean who cares,of course I care,,I fucking care!

I glare at her then she looks at me I strain a laughter "Let's go"

          *******

After 40mins of gaming I drop the play station pad and lay back on the bed

"Babe I'm exhausted,I need to get going"

"Marsh ? don't you want to stay any longer with me ?"

"It's not like that,it's just..ok fine I'm staying,but I won't stay long I need to go see dove"

She gives a curious eye "And why is that ?"

"I ...   " I stutter

I pause and think of an excuse
"I need to catch up because I missed class remember? I'm​ going to pick a book from her"

"Why can't you take mine?"

"Umh ,well I .." I scratch my head

Busted!

She glares at me "What's with dove?!why does everyone want to be around her ? I'm I not good enough?!"

I turn and place my hand on her shoulder"Babe!calm down,I can explain, just listen to me"

She places her hand on mine then pushes it "I don't need your explanation,it's clear ,I'm worthless"

I wrap my hand around her shoulder then pull her onto my chest "No you're not,don't ever say that" I pause "I love you and that will never change, believe me"

She holds my hand and starts sobbing

"That's enough,I'm not leaving anymore "   I whisper  caressing her hand "ssssshh ,That's enough"

"What did I do ,to deserve.."

"Sssh"

"Why can't you-"

I tilt her head up  and press my lips on hers ,I take it slowly but that lasts for two seconds before she gives in and kisses me back

I honestly didn't want to do this but I couldn't stop myself either

my hands hold her tightly against her as my fingers itch to explore her body ,we meld into a heated kiss till the pressure built in my jeans,a moan slips out of my lips . I realese her panting then her closed eyes pop open and we look at each other

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