Maybe in an other life

Chapter Twenty

It was the third day without Sasuke and the feeling is still there. It was eating my flesh, drinking my blood. Nightmares were haunting me. The fear of sleep permanently in my mind.When will this end? Guilt was filling me, like I was taking a bath in it. No way this was just the tension. Something will happen, but what isn't clear. I need to be sure. I need to see him safe. No. I just need to see his beautiful face with those onyx eyes showing his emotions, his love towards me. And I need to see it soon. Don't you dare do what you do in my dreams. Don't you dare drown by your own blood! Don't you dare leave me! Don't you dare leave this little baby you gave life, love! Don't you dare giving this burden on him! Don't you dare leave this place before I do! Don't you dare . . .

I felt a liquid ran down my face. It was sparkling by the light of the candle burning to my right. Why is sadness looking so wonderful? It was like art, letting me forget the reason of my sadness. Babys cry so often about the most common things. Am I a baby? I was acting like one. I was crying because of nightmares. They are normal, but was this feeling normal either. Was it a warning or just imagination? Why are my hands shaking? Why is my whole body shaking? Does there always have to be a reason? Can't it just be the way it is? Decisions. This word is on my mind the whole day now. Just like this whispering. Maybe in an other life. This sentence occupies my mind for so long. Since I was born. When I looked at my parents. My mother's [h/c] soft and shining hair. The whispers just grew louder and louder, until it turned into shoutings. And everytime my heart felt like glass about to shatter into million pieces, covering the world, hurting the ones I love with their sharpness. No it will not end like this. Not this time. I will not lose another one. It's a promise, and I don't even think about breaking it. But some things can't be changed, can they?

But when something will happen, I will live or die with thought of at least trying. You may will not reach your goal, but you made a step or two or more. Let your heart lead your way and when it thinks the time is over, then so be it. . .

Sasuke, I will come and find you. When it's just my heart missing you for a week I will be happy. When it's my heart missing you forever, I know that our love is unconditionally. Meant to be, but just in an other life . . . But still, our souls will never be seperated. They will swim next to each other in the river of life and death.