I feel so cold Chanlix

9. Right now you probably don't have any time to rest

"I found you a student tutor group where you could study." His mom says as Chan sits at the back looking out of the window.

"It has bests students in the whole town and I wish you could pay some respect to me finding you a one and not ignore it." His mother keeps talking and doesn't bother to look away at the passing by trees and people.

"Are you even listening Chan?!" His mother snaps and still Chan ignores it and sees that they are already here. Before his mother could say anything. Chan is already out of the car running away from his mother.

He didn't want to look at her or wave goodbye. He doesn't like the way she treats him somehow. As the breeze hits his face as he keeps running to inside the building ignoring people's stares. Chan just wants to be normal and feel free. He runs to his locker and opens it to see some letters there. 'Love letters, huh.' Chan thinks to himself as he takes them out puts them in his bag not caring if they broke little. He isn't ready for a love life. He doesn't have time for that. Chan takes his books too and closes his locker and runs up the stairs. Breathing heavily as he takes steps forward the rooftop.

As he opens the door he can see that there isn't anyone here, so he can peacefully burn the letters. He knows it's little cruel to burn the words someone put so much feeling in to it but the feeling burning something felt good. The feeling burning the paper as the words disappeared within the fire and smoke. And how the paper turned black. 

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"Hey kid! Wake up before you are going to be late!" Someone screams at Felix. He didn't let anyone inside his home. Did he left his door open? Felix opens his eyes and looks around. An old lady is standing beside his bed. Felix rubs his eyes again and she is still standing there.

"Ummm.... How did... get in?" Felix tried to speak in Korean still not building sentences as he just woke up. The lady just smiles brightly as she crosses her arms.

"No need to speak in Korean. I just thought that I should wake you up before you are going to be late and my grandson goes to same school as you. Also thank you for being there when that all happened so I am willing to help you even little." Someone's grandma says as she sits on the bed across Felix.

"Are you the kids's grandma?" Felix asks as the flash of memories rush in his eyes. The boy. Bleeding.

"Yes, he isn't that badly injured. So don't feel sorry that you didn't stop the accident. His mother is taking care of her bills and all after not giving so much attention. My daughter now regrets her decision not listening her son. Don't care about me ranting about her and my grandson. I am here to take care of you know." She paused for a second and ruffled Felix's hair. He is still confused how he get in. Does she know the password code?

"Jeongin was always talking about you and how kind you were to him when you first met. Do you remember the incident that happened in the football field in one of the p.e classes?" She says as Felix tries to remember as a small memory starts rolling in his mind. When the other students didn't want to play football outside with him as others wanted to play basketball inside and how they said that his braces looked weird on him. Felix wasn't having it and followed him outside but didn't talk to him after that much because he was still lacking at his Korean skills. Felix nods at her.

"Good, he always admired you from a far. He was always jealous about your English skills and learnt himself how to speak it for you so he could be friends with you. He didn't have the guts to speak to you before he was fluent in English so he always came to visit me. Then he found out you live next door so he tried not to panic so much. He was a little coward, so let me take care of you after hearing from him that you always work so hard." She says holding Felix's hand. Felix was feeling emotions he hadn't felt in a long time.

"Yes you can and... Thank you." Felix says the last part in Korean as smiles so happily as his eyes tears little as he holds hand with her. She hugs Felix as the boy sobs quietly and hugs back.

"The breakfast is ready so dress up and eat before you go. Also you can visit Jeongin someday. He hasn't woken up yet, but I think he would like to see his savior and his motivation to learn English and spent more time with me. Also you can all me just Grandma if you want." Grandma says as she gets up and pats Felix's head. Hope he wakes up. Grandma thinks to himself as Felix reminds her of her son.

"If you want me to teach you Korean, you can always tell me and if there is a problem with the rent you can also tell me about it." Grandma says smiling sweetly as he walks out of the room, so Felix can dress in peace and process what just happened. He stood up and stared at his hand. The hand that touched the boy and the view of a man screaming and burning. Felix wasn't sure was it an accident or a planned murder, but the view was horrible and it's going to haunt him for a long time.

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"Hey Felix! How are you doing today?" Jisung says smiling as he walks up to Felix. Felix turns around and tells him he is doing great. He also tells Jisung about what happened this morning. Still he didn't tell him about Jeongin and that he is going to meet him this evening. 

"So a friendly grandma offered you that she can help with rent. Why can't I find a garndma to help with my own rent!" Jisung gets little upset but gets all jiggly and forgets his upset attitude. Felix spacing out again. He stares out the window in to the horizon. Even when he is seated across the glass from the windows. He stares in to the horizon wishing this all is just a dream.

"Are you even listening Felix?" Jisung spokes snapping his fingers in front of Felix to get his attention back. Felix stares at Jisung before giving him a smile. He feels something buzzing in his pockets. 

'Can we meet up at the roof top' Felix reads the text. It's all written in english and it's from and unknown number.