In the eye of the dead{C.G/TWD Fan-Fiction}

Chapter 53

Carl's point of view-
I checked in on Heidi who was laying sound asleep in bed, she seemed to be getting worse than she was before...and it was starting to worry me.
I close the door but leave a crack so I can hear her if she needs me, then I walk to my room and open the door, and a smile comes to my face as I see the love of my life laying in my bed.

"Hey." She said softly.

"Hi." I say with a smile and I take off my shirt revealing my bare chest, but I leave my pants on, and I slip off my boots.

"How you feeling?" I asked and slid in bed beside her.

"Better...I guess." She says and cuddles up against me.

I kiss her forehead , gently, not to hurt her.

"Noelle?"

"Yeah?"

"What happened exactly when you were with your dad?"

"I...I don't want to talk about it." She says and rolls over away from me.

"Why?"

"I just don't."

"Please just tell me what happened, I don't like how you're hiding it from me...it worries me."

"I said I don't want to talk about it, Carl." She says and gets out of bed.

"Why not? You always keep everything from me, and I think I deserve to know at least what happened."

"Carl I said no, I don't want to fucking talk about it."

I get up out of bed and look at her, "why? Why? Why won't you ever tell me anything?"

"Because."

"Because why?"

"Because, you don't need to know. It's done and over with. Ok, just drop it."

"How can you expect me to drop it when the girl I love is hurting inside? I see it, you're not ok."

"I'm fine, Carl...just stop." She says softly.

"No...No you're not. Don't stand there and lie to me, you're not ok Noelle and you know it. If you would just tell me everything I would be able to understand more of why..." I say
raising my voice.

She looks up at me with tears streaming down her face slowly. My mouth closes quickly before I can say anything else.

Quickly I go to hug her, but she declines.

"My entire life has been a fucking wreck Carl, my mom fucking hated me, she beat me until I was basically just laying in a puddle of my own blood, I tried to love her but she never loved me back...everything I did to her was wrong, I was always to blame for her not having the perfect life. For weeks sometimes I would be put into different homes, but my mom always got me back..My dad was never around, he was locked up before I could ever really remember him. My entire life I have basically wanted to die, but when I was finally finding happiness shit went down again, it always does...." She said with tears streaming down her face, "I thought for once something was going to go ok....but I knew it was way to good to be true...."

I sit down beside her pulling her close to me, "I'm sorry...." I say. She cries silently into my chest, I pull her away and face her and look into her eyes.

"Noelle, you're strong...now that I understand how strong you actually are you're ten times stronger than I ever thought. You're amazing ok, and everything gets better in the end...if it's not better then it's not the end." I say and cuff her hands with mine, "I love you, and don't ever, ever, forget that."

She nods her head and looks back up at me, I wipe away the tears from her cheeks and kiss her lips gently, then I pull her closely to me.

"I love you too...." She says softly.

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A/N: well....ok. Imma go cry. Bye.