Horns And Wings

I

Namjoon's Pov.

My eyes fluttered open. All I can see is the blue sky with puffy clouds. I can smell the nice floras scent in the air. The view is so beautiful that I can't even describes it with words.

It's breezy,

It's peaceful.

"Wait, am I dead already? " I jolted up and wandered around; just to try to find something odd.

Mountains, flowers, birds, trees.
Looks normal to me. I'm still standing on earth, feeling the grass under my feet.

"Wait a minute." I moved my feet and put some pressure on the ground.

It's green grass.

Not a road.

"Where am I?! " I tried to go to the other side of the hills to check on the surroundings.

Small houses can be seen from afar.

Okay namjoon. This is fucking not Seoul.

I tried to remember how the hell I got here in the first place. I tapped my chin and closed my eyes.

I took a night stroll around 10.00 p.m, I went to Han river where I used to go with Y/n when we were in a relationship.

"Y/n..." my heart ached when I said that name. The moments, memories that we cherished together were still banging in my head.

Her smile, her touch, her cute giggles, her hugs, everything.

Maybe it was the broken heart in me, I accidentally let my feet walked without I noticed it.

Until now, I'm in place with hills and trees.

Very far away from Seoul.

Congratulations. You're lost.

"Aish. Maybe I should call for Jin hyung or Hobi to pick me up." I sighed.

My hand dived into my pocket to search my phone. My eyes popped out when I can't even feel the presence of my phone in any of the pockets.

"Shit." I cursed under my breath. "Why now?! How I'm supposed to call them?! " then it hit me.

"Would they still helped me, after all I had done to them? "

I've been isolated myself from them for weeks, since that tragedy. I locked myself in my room everytime I got home from a visit to my parents and my laws. I pushed Bangtan away, eventhough I need them. We barely talked to each other. Our dorm was quite like a grave, although there were seven men lived together.

Yoongi hyung always been out from Daegu to Seoul, Jimin was visiting his in-laws in his late wife's hometown, so did Jungkook and Taehyung.

We've all been trying to catch up with our late-wife's parents.

But to me, I just couldn't forget about the incident. It keeps playing over and over again. I played to be the strong man in front of Y/n's parents, but deep down, I was devastated.

If only I didn't do that stupid mistake, none of this will happen.

Y/n , Charyeong, Aisha, Jiyeon and Jisoo would still be alive.

I shook my head, trying to get rid of the negative thoughts. Taking a deep breath, I slowly walked down the hills until I found a road.

"I'll just follow the road. Maybe I'll find my way back then."