I'll Reach You One Day [RusAme angst]

Chapter 22: feel bad

{Japan's POV}

    'america-senpai isnt at school today' i think to myself as i walk through the halls with north Korea-san, china-san, Vietnam-san, Italy-san, and a new friend Spain-san (all of japan's friends have -san at the end). he came to this school longer then i thought and needed somewhere to sit at lunch so i let him and he hated America-senpai too so China-san let him in our little group thing. im rambling this isnt about him, it's about america-senpai.

    "hey, have you guys seen america-sen- i mean america anywhere?" i ask. "why do you wanna know?" Vietnam-san askes putting her hand on her hip. "o-oh i just- I need to "t-talk" to him" I say trying to sound confident. the truth is i just wanted to know if he was okay. "havent seen him since i told him to kill himself." north Korea-san says bluntly. "you said wh-what?!" I scream and stop walking, in which every one else does to. "what's so special about it?" north-san asks like it's no big deal. "AMERICA-SENPAI COULD BE DEAD YOU IGNORANT BASTARD!!" I yell as I ran out of the school.

    I started crying at the thought of seeing America-senpai in a coffin. 'he can't be dead...' I thought to myself. just then I realized I had Russia-san's number. 'he could know where America-senpai is!' I thought as I pulled out my phone and called him.

    after three rings he finally answered. "what do YOU want Japan?" Russia asked in an angry tone. "Russia-san! hi! u-um, I'm sorry to c-call at such an I-inopropirite time b-but I just had a small q-question...!" I said on the edge on tears. "okay..what is the question?" he  says curiously. "d-do you know anything on wh-why America-senpai isn't h-here today?" I hear a long pause and muffled screaming and crying in the background. "wh-why do you ask?" he said, his voice cracking. I couldn't take it anymore and I burst into tears."BECAUSE IM WORRIED SICK ABOUT HIM OKAY!!?" I scream. Russia-san fell silent again and said, "come to the hospital and say you're with me." then he hung up. "RUSSIA-SAN?! COME ON!!" I slammed my foot on the ground and whipped my tears for more to fall. 'hospital and say I'm with Russia-san...okay' I say as I run to the hospital. 'this cant be good.'

{third person's POV before Japan calling Russia}

    "god and I thought you couldn't get worse, it all makes sense now!" France says started to cry again. uk was silent and looked around to see Canada, new Zealand, Australia, and Russia staring at him. "I-i would never do something like that!" uk spits out. "cut the bullshit britian, I can explain how I know if you want." France says shrugging as tears fell. "please do, I have no idea what you're talking about." uk says confidently as he nervously sweats. 

    "remember when Amérique was eleven? do you?? he had just got braces! it was so cute!" France says as she grabs at her hair and almost rips it out. "y know! when me and Amérique were drawing a picture together for father's day?! Canada was due in 2 months?! you have got to remember!" France screams. uk just stands there like an idiot.

    "you said you had some work or buisness or some merde (shit) like that?! you took America in your office, I heard the muffled screams, cries, groans, everything!!" France screams in uk's face. "he looked putain de (fucking) dead!! and when he was screaming he could've said something, done something!!?" France yells as it echoed throughout the hallways. uk tried to defend himself. "he was crying because the work was too hard! groaning because he was bored! said something done something, because I ended up doing all the work!" "fantastic excuse uk! why the hell was the door locked, huh!?" she argued back. they kept fighting and yelling until Russia got japsn's call and walked in an empty hallway.

{timeskip to when Japan arrives, japan's POV}

     finally make it to the hospital and stop to catch my breath. I walk to the front desk and explain, "I'm here to see the United States of America, I'm with Russia." I said. "hmm....oh! here we are! room 413, 6th story. I'm very sorry about the accident." the lady at the front desk states. Japan smiles nervously, the words echoed in my ears. "haha, yeah...thank you!" I say as I run to the elevator. I click the 6 button and start quietly crying with a smile plastered on my face. 'I love you America-senpai...but I know your hearts belongs to another, so I'll hide away all I feel and try to start over with you...america-...kun. (Japan calls her best friends -kun)' I say as the door opens and I run to room 413.

    I bump into Russia who was off the side in a dark hallway. "R-russia-san! where is America-kun?! what happened!!?" I yell to him as I pull him down to my face by the shirt collar. "calm down Japan, we cant-" Russia-san got caught off by the doctor who opened America-kun's door. "any visitors for the United States of America may enter, ill explain in the room." I let go off his collar and run in past everyone. I slow down once I see America and all around him. I feel the tears starting up again.

    "a-america-kun...no no no no NO!" i yelled as I ran to him. I cupped my hands on his cheeks and cried as I sat down. I stare at him until I wipe my tears away and stand up so France can sit down. "what happened to him?!" I asked the doctor. "you must be a new visitor. well...to cut short...mr.america here he..tried to cut his life short by....by hanging himself..." the doctor said looking down and eyes closed. I stare in shock as I fall to the floor. "...it's my fault..." I whisper. "ms, we are all sad, but please don't blame yoursel-" "NO! IT WAS ME! ALL ME!! I BULLIED HIM FOR MY FUCKING DEAD MOM!!!" I scream and stand up.

    "no, sweetie.." I hear a beautiful voice say behind me. I turn around to see France. it wasn't your fault, it was my husbands...he wouldn't kill himself because of you." France said with a face full of tears and a weak smile. "America-kun must get his looks from you." I say smiling. "oh, stop France said with a drained chuckle. me and France talked for some time until I looked at America again. I started crying slightly again and cup my hands around his cheek. "without you...im just a sad song...." I whisper to him. "ahem..I hate to break the moment but..." the doctor started

"but I have to explain what is going to happened to America here.."

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