I'll Reach You One Day [RusAme angst]

Chpater 23: fuzzy memories

{France's POV}

    the silence from the doctor was killing everyone, i felt it. 'i dunno what I was thinking, leaving my child behind...now i suffer the curse and now i am blind.' i sung to myself in my mind. i closed my eyes. with all this anger, guilt, and sadness coming to haunt me forever...i can't wait for the cliff at the end of the river. then the doctor spoke again after his long and loud sigh.

    "America will or should wake up in a couple weeks...maybe days...maybe even hours!" he said with joy at the end. everyone yelled in joy, but i knew i was the loudest. i could feel it. it's been so long since the last ive seen my son! now he will be in my arms again! soon my child...soon..

    i run up to the doctor and hug him as tightly as i could, "you're the reason my son is okay!" i yelled into his shoulder. he hugged me back and we let go together. I look back at Amérique and to the side of him, i walk over to the little table holding most of his stuff and my eyes cant focus on one thing. his sunglasses hiding his scar, a razor, pills, his note, and a picture...of him and..Russia..i didn't expect that. america doesnt look to amused but still happy, which makes me happy! i look at Amérique and place my hand on his cheek, and stroke my thumb up and down his cheek. "your sweet little eyes your little smile is all i remember...those fuzzy memories mess with my temper..." I say. suddenly the doctor needs us to leave the room again so he can try and make my son wake up faster, and i leave silently and slow. the doors shuts and I smile with a tear streaming down my face. "im sorry my sweet baby I wish I'd been there..." i whisper.

  
{Third person's POV}

    after what felt like forever, the doors had opened and the family and friends were allowed to enter the room once again. the doctor explained, "Mr. America here should wake up within minutes everyone!" the doctor says with joy. everyone bursts in tears and starts hugging each other, well except for Russia. Russia is sitting next to America just...staring at him. 'once America wakes, he'll go for the open window. i just know he will. i have to stop him once he wakes up.' Russia thought to himself. everyone else was confused to Russia's actions but shrugged it off at first. they kept celebrating.

    sooner or later everyone calmed down and talked while waiting for America to wake. he was fidgeting and only Russia seemed to notice, he stares in shock, he felt paralyzed.

{America's POV}

    what's...happening...? im not....im not in...hell...did i..go to heaven...after all...? huh...I slowly open my eyes just a bit. the room was filled with chatter, and i was covered in wires. i look to see what im attached to only to find out it's...life support?! im not dead?! what the fuck?! I stand up straight, eyes wide open and start hyperventilating, doctors and nurses run over and try to calm me down, but once they leave again my family and other people gather around...fucking shit hole- "AMÉRIQUE!!" my mother shouts. she runs over and hugs me tight while sobbing and going on and on about how "you should've told me!" and "whats wrong?!" I sigh and dont reply, although i do see an open window...maybe with enough luck we're high in the building...

    without thinking I get up and run to the window, with all my life support being dragged across the floor. I was just about to jump out of the window when i feel someone grab my stomach and pull me back. I land on top of them and them on the floor. the country was still sitting up and i was in between there open legs. i look up to see who the hell would still want me alive except ny mom-

"R....Russia....?!"