Since I do not have enough courage to tell this to my friends, I'm just going to write it here. Hey... how are you guys doing? I'm glad to know that you guys are doing fine or well at least. I wanted to apologize on the way I've been acting.
I want to say sorry to Brianna first. I'm sorry that I mostly clingy towards you.. I don't mean to be annoying and I promise you that I won't be doing that or try to be annoying. I can tell that the words I say to you about you not talking to me or anyting is very manipulative and I'm very upset with myself. I shouldn't be acting that way I should be more mature and be letting you do your own thing. I do love you and care about you but that doesn't mean that I should be grabbing onto you and always trying to get your attention. I sincerely apologize to you and I never mean to hurt you, I honestly don't think you would want to be my friend right now.. but I do apologize.
Hey Gracie! I'm glad to know that you're okay and on what you told me I'm so proud of you. I truly am. And yes on what you guys had told me I do know that I was clingy with Brianna. It was because I was scared that I won't be close to her anymore and she might lose interest in being my friend. But I understand that that gives me no excuse. I'm trying to let go of her now to not speak to her as much.. I just am trying my best to not ruin anything even if I promised her that I would try to get close to her this year it's getting to the point where I might get attached to her or even be annoying probably because I trust her a lot I don't know.. I want to tell you I'm sorry too for always taking her from you guys or anything like that if I ever did. She's not a toy and I completely understand that she's our best friend and you are too! I'm sorry if I ever made you sad or not before too, you're someone I truly care about Gracie and someone I'm also super proud of.
Hey brandi, are you doing okay? I really hope you are. Anyways I wanted to say sorry to you. I'm sorry that I made you annoyed sometimes when I was crying over little things that I shouldn't have, it's not really easy from getting traumatized by a girl and having her hurt you over and over again. I'm sorry sometimes I don't say the right things. And I'm sorry that when you need advice to help your crush that I'm not the best at doing that but I do know what's right. I never will hurt you you are the most sweetest person I know including the girls. We go through thick and thin and the situation you're in now I know it's tough. But I want you to know that I love you with all my heart.
Lastly miya.
Hey.. how are you?
I know you're not going to talk to me tomorrow at school. But it's okay! I really don't know why you don't like me.. do you think I'm fake? I'm sorry if I do seem like that. But listen I'm your friend and if I'm friends with somebody I'm not going to talk shit. I truly care about you and I hope you know that and I try my best to be there for you and give you my trust and try to earn it but it's hard. You don't really trust me and I could hear it in your words. I know you're scared of losing people and that's okay! I just want you to know that I do care for you. Even if you may not believe it I really do. I don't know it just it just hurts me to know that you think that I would talk ugly about you? I really don't have the time of day to be talking bad about somebody I really need to focus on my schoolwork and band work instead of focusing on drama. I know better than to start that and I would rather keep things to myself then start shit. I want you to know that you're the last person I would ever talk about and I wouldn't even talk about anybody because it's not worth it. Why talk about someone ugly when you're trying to make people happy. It doesn't really make sense right? That's how I feel I try to make people happy including you I don't want you to be sad or anyting I just want to see that smile of yours. So you may Hate Me Now. But I will always care for you and be there for you always.
To you for girls I'm sorry for everything. I don't know if I've been treating you wrong or right but if I have been treating you wrong then I'm disappointed in myself for doing that to you. I love the four of you girls you guys always been there for me when I was sad or just depressed. I know you guys might not read this but I just want you guys to know that your special and unique in different ways. You will always stay in my heart. I love you and I hope you four know that. Goodnight .
