A world of emotions

Change.

One once said "you never finish getting to know a person"
I never listened,I never paid attention, I never understood.

Lies,pain,betrayal..that's what forced me to open my eyes to all the colors the person is trying to hide.
All the peachy,rosy hues turned to a gloomy blue..
I wish I took everything back, all the colors of the rainbow faded to black.

I truly thought everything was transparent..I thought I could trust..
Maybe I trust too easy, maybe I tried too hard to see the good that I ignored all the warning signs. I wanted to love..I wanted to see the light in you..

I was so mesmerized by the rose that I ignored the thorns..now I'm here..bleeding..how could I be blind? All I wanted was to be kind..

I believe in second chances. I believe people can change.
I want to help people who actually wanna change for the better, every time I try it just gets worse.
Why am I so selfless? Why can't I reject people? Why can't I say no?..people lure me in with a peachy pink fantasy to the later slap me with the reality of who they really are..
Why do I let this happen?..

What do you gain from causing pain? Why cause so much destruction? Is it for your satisfaction? Why lie?..just..why?..