I deserve it all.
I pretended to be happy,
I know pretending is bad
But I had to.
I had to forget the pain I did to you.
I left you,
I was scared
And I left you.
I deserve this pain.
You moved on
But I did not.
You're dating someone again
But I may never date again.
I'm broken.
I left you
And I deserve this pain.
That one night,
When I gave you a suicide note
And I didn't know
But when I came out of the hospital
You blocked me.
You moved on.
How I realized,
How much you stopped caring.
Okay our 5 months dating was so nice.
I thought maybe you were my wife
But I guess love just isn't for me.
Love just isn't for me.
I lost you.
I deserve this pain.
I shouldn't date anymore,
I don't deserve to feel love like you gave me.
I'm sorry for breaking your heart,
I deserve it.
But the pain that you gave me,
Really hurted me.
I told you we would stay friends
But you never texted me.
You never looked at me.
Everytime you saw me at school,
You never looked at me.
You pretended like I never existed,
Like we never had a relationship before.
If I could just take away the life we had,
The love and pain we had,
I would do it.
So I wouldn't feel this pain
That I'm feeling right now.
I can't take it.
I hate it.
I'm balling my eyes out,
Feeling all the pain over and over,
Again...
I hate it.
I keep looking at the pictures and memories we had,
God how fucking screwed up I did.
I'm such a fucking screw up.
I deserve this pain for leaving you,
I deserve it all...
