Forever and for always

chapter 19

"Madge?. Troy asked carefully walking into the room. Maddie layer on the bed her face burried in the pillow. "Its ok., please calm down." Maddie sat up slowly her eyes red and puffy. "Its my fault, lin was my fault, aisha was my fault, carlos was my fault and when we thought we lost Johnny and him getting shot it was my fault,baby aisha getting kidnapped my fault, im the biggest fuck up in the world." She sobbed. Troy rubbed her back. "Things happen for a reason. Some times we have no control over. You can sit and cry about it, or you can tough it out , I know you'll tough it, your a saint." He smiled rubbing her shoulder. "Thanks."She sat up and rubbed her eyes? It's been one hell of a day, year month week what ever the hell it is. " I know."things are gonna get better maddie. I promise." he smiled. When this is all over, me and you will go take a vacation. Maddie scoffed. We would have the media all over our asses then too. They seem to want to keep us in the spotlight all the time." "Yeah I know. I just hope Johnny will make a quick recovery. We need our bad ass saint." Troy said. "yeah , I can't live without my brother, he's all I have left, he's been my crutch throughout the whole life. " Maddie felt tears welling up in her eyes* "shh baby please don't cry." "I can't help it, my emotions are all fucked up." "Why - Ohh right." Troy layed next to her. *I'm gonna go check on Aisha. "Maddie nodded and pulled out a small photo book flipping through it of pictures of her and Johnny when they were kids." Johnny please get better soon, I need you.." She hugged the book close to her chest and fell Asleep.

Maddie awoken to the smell of food cooking and Aisha cheering . "Shh we don't want to wake your mom up." Troy said to the hyper toddler now running circles around the table. "Aisha-a please sit down." Maddie walked down the stairs. "Good morning dear, how'd you sleep?" Troy asked. "Great, why is our daughter running around like the road runner?" She asked rubbing her eyes. "well you see, I told her she had a cup of orange juice on the table and she accidentally grabbed my coffee and drank some it." "Troy! " He cringed a little and grinned. "I'm sorry I didn't know until I turned around." "Please be careful, remember , she does have to go to day care today. " I know I know." Aisha jumped up and down. "mommy mommy ! I want to watch tv!" The toddler exclaimed jumping up and down. "Ok but first you have to eat breakfast and then get ready to school." She pouted. "But I want to go with you mommy." She said poking her lip out. "Oh honey one day when your older, but your gonna have fun in school. Draw mommy and daddy a pretty picture, ok?" She said picking her up."Ok!" "How do you think she's going to react to having a sibling?" Troy asked raising an eyebrow lighting a ciggerette. "I don't know. " Maddie said pulling it out of his mouth. "no smoking, not even in the house, or around her, got it, and I mean it, your going to stop that habit. Your kids need you." Troy sighed. "Your right, breakfast is ready, are you gonna eat?" "Of course I am." She said kissing his lips smiling" my man is an excellent cook."

After dropping Aisha off at day, Maddie made her way to the penthouse, Saints were standing around drinking and doing Thier normal things, polishing and loading guns, shooting pool, chit chatting watching tv and eating. "Hey boss!" They all said as Maddie walked in. Maddie grabbed a clipboard and walked around. "Ok the pipe is broke and no one thought to call a plumber. " she said pinching the bridge of her nose. "Oi boss!" Maddie threw him a sideways glare. "There has been signs of Vogel though and he was spotted with killbane. " Maddie froze. "Killbane.. I thought we killed him.." "Apparently , Vogel brought him back, his zombie bitten self." One of the female saints laughed. " Maddie turned to her narrowing her eyes."and that's funny how?" She asked coldly. "I-it's not!" She said quickly huddling in a corner. And where has he been spotted.Asha looked at a sheet of paper. "Mainly, down town.. ," she said cooly. "It's like a dead zone now that they are down there, everyone scattered from there. "ok so now, we have to search down town, great." Not really boss, look, he's staying at some hotel, killbane and Vogel both. "Kinzie said her fingers quickly tapping over the keys of her laptop. "hack into the computer of every hotel, find out which one it is and the floor room number and everything, I'm going to make sure they both pay big time for it. In the mean time, I need to go visit Johnny ." Shaundi placed a hand on Maddies shoulder. "Boss, there's something I need to tell you.."

A/n well there it is sorry if it's short and crappy but next chapter coming soon! Enjoy!