She Doesn't Mind

nine: Kiss

"You let him kiss you," he pointed out.

I felt something different after he said that, "Yes, so?"

He stared intently, eyebrows creased and I couldn't maintain eye contact so I looked away. "You were good back there, I didn't know you could play," I said to change the subject.

He scoffed, "Of course you didn't," and he moved closer.

"So uh I heard you also model," I said as I try to take a step back.

Please Cain just say something to ease the tension.

But the stubborn shit that he is, put his arm on my semi naked waist and made me stay in place. The material of his dress shirt touching my skin gave me goosebumps.

"Am I making you uncomfortable?" He asked instead.

Damn it I said EASE THE TENSION not make it worse.

"No, no." I say that but I stutter.

Cain kept quiet, waiting for my reaction and since he was taller, he had to look down, his face inches away from touching mine. "Uhm Cain..." I called.

"What?" He asked breathily.

"Could you uhm..."

"Hmm?" He feigned innocence.

"Maybe let go... a bit," I hesitated.

This is too much for me, I kinda want him to do what I think he's gonna do but at the same time no because what if it's not gonna be what I think it'll be.

"Why?" He asked with a playful grin plastered across his face.

Goddamnit Cain! You're making me uneasy. I don't know why since I'm normally cool with intimate distances but. I can't seem to handle this. Him.

I'm getting dizzy, "You're too close," what a lame excuse Lyle.

"So was he, what's the problem?" What kinda reasoning is that?

"You're closer," I whined. I can't function properly.

"Lyle he kissed you, I'm pretty sure he's closer," then he chuckled.

Son of a bitch, he's enjoying this.

I snorted, "Yeah but you and him were different," another lame excuse. Lyle you absolute piece of shit.

"Then how is this any worse? He kissed you," I don't know why he keeps bringing that up. It's not progressive.

"On the cheeks!"

"Still doesn't explain why you said I'm closer," he said breathily. Tone so deep and sexy I almost whimpered.

Maybe if I just kissed him he'll get out of my face.

"Alright fine, he was closer, do you want me to kiss him again to check?" I was glaring at him now, taking in the shape of his eyes and the emotions behind them.

His brows were now touching, the playful demeanor vanishing and getting replaced by annoyance. I hate that it made me snicker.

Just when I thought he was gonna pull away, our nose touched and I inhaled surprised. Cain what the hell!

"No," he said and I looked down, breaking eye contact.

Something inside me felt good, I felt warm all over.

"Lyle?" Jonah was now here and Cain still wouldn't move. I looked up at him and his eyes were now serious.

He finally stepped back and I stood next to Jonah, taking my drink from him and drinking it all in one go. He squinted his eyes at me and proceeded to ask, "Are you dating?"

I let out a forced laugh and turned to Cain who was now beside me, "No, no, no, we're just friends."

Jonah smiled, "Then do you wanna go outside?" He asked while caressing the area behind his ears. He's embarrassed.

I smiled, looked at Cain as if asking for permission. I don't know why I did it. I abandoned his gaze and turned to Jonah, "You trying to make up for lost months?" And we laughed.

"Yeah, that and some." I could only imagine what 'some' means but I want to go find out.

I said sure to Jonah and turned to look at Cain, his eyes were like earlier only even angrier but composed. It's his usual gaze, I smiled at him and mouthed a 'see you later'.

I wonder how Cain is gonna react to this later.

We were both quiet till we reached the gazebo in the field.

"I know you know by now but I wanna say it personally," he started. Oh. "Lyle, I like you. Since the first week of university actually, I was too scared to confess because you're like, really intimidating." He chuckled and kept going. "Then I started watching you, I know it's creepy but I swear I never followed you home." And I laughed. Remembering someone who said different.

"I was scared but now that I have courage, I wanted to ask you," he paused, preparing himself.

"Do you want to go out with me?" His face hot and flushed and it was so adorable.

I smiled, easing him up. Here we go, "Jonah you're cute and kind but I can't lead you on, I mean, we just had a conversation tonight and honestly, I'm flattered but I don't want to hurt you." His head drooped low, oh no, I held the sides of his face and raised it, "I'm not exactly the girlfriend type but I want to be your friend. I really do. You're fun to be with." I said genuinely because it's how I really feel.

His face was sad but still smiled, please don't cry, "You want to be friends?" I asked sweetly.

He looked at me and chuckled, "It'd be weird but sure, let's be friends."

I held his hand, "Think of this as my apology," he was confused but I raised my hand up to his face and he got the message.

Slowly, our lips touched and he made movement. He's a great kisser, why doesn't he have any girlfriend yet? We pulled apart and his cheeks flamed red, I smiled. He got that it's purely platonic for me, "You can go inside if you want to, I'll just stay here." And I nodded.

I went inside and Cain greeted me with his signature indifferent gaze, handing me a glass of I don't know what and drank it in one go. Shit it's gin. I told Cain what happened and he didn't react the whole time, almost as if he knew that would happen.

"At least you didn't led him on," he justified with a small grin on his face.

Then I remembered something, "I probably shouldn't have kissed him."

But then, a lot of my guy friends had kissed me before. It'll be fine.

Cain's brows furrowed, "What?" He asked in a deadly tone. I know I'm supposed to be scared but I got excited instead. Like I'm happy that he's mad.

I do my kiss trick to lots of guys who confessed, and they never bothered me ever since. They all know that that kiss was me saying no. Weird but it's effective.

I explained that to him but his expression didn't get any better, I giggled, "You don't have to get so jealous," I said jokingly.

"It's still a kiss," he said firmly.

"It was just a kiss. It means nothing," I said with a shrug.

"It wasn't nothing for him," and he stood up.

It was when he's walking when I realized, "Wait, you're not even gonna deny it?"

Is he really jealous? Goddamnit Cain.