Dear EX

I don't necessarily stalk you on IG but base sa lumalabas, i know you're happy. That makes me happy.

I wish i were the one taking this photo. Alam m naman, mahilig ako sa photography.

Kunyare that i don't stalk you, but damn, i check IG just to see if you posted something new.

I still keep the camera u gave me. When i use it, i remember you. Your sweetness, your calm disposition, you're quite a catch, i was on top of the world when you let me enter your heart.

Salamat pala ha.

Minahal mo ako.

Di ko alam bakit until now, i feel something for you. I get sad when i know your heart is broken. It has been many times.

Nakakalungkot isipin, i wish i were the shoulder you could cry on when you're down. I wish you can just be my best friend like nothing bad happened.

Pero alam ko impossible itong hinahangad ko.

Alam m naman mahirap ako mag express ng sarili.

Nagpapasalamat ako sa'yo dahil tinuruan mo akong mag loosen up. Tama ba ung term? Na mag relax ng konte. Madami ako natutunan sa yo.

Ano pa ba ang kelangan ko sabihin?

Para akong baliw, kinakausap sarili habang nakatitig sa iyong matamis na ngiti. Always naman, nakakainlab ka pa rin.

Para namang mababasa mo to noh. Pero khit di mo mabasa, sana maramdaman mo mahal pa rin kita.

Minsan lang ako nangarap ng mamahalin. Matagal na tinamaan ni kupido puso ko sa'yo, alam mo yan. Kaya sobrang sakit sa dibdib nung tayo ay naghiwalay.

Sarap isipin ang nakaraan. Kung maibabalik pa ba yung samahan na di maaapektuhan ng mga nangyari.

Matagal na tayong nagkaayos, salamat sa Diyos. Ang masaklap, damdamin ko sa'yo di humuhupa. Sa paglipas ng panahon, mas lumalakas.

Kasalanan ba mahalin ang isang Kristina Concepcion? Wala na siguro makakatulad sa'yo. Kumbaga, ikaw ang nag iisang kayang pabungisngisin ako na parang tanga. Halata naman. Di ako nagiging ganun sa iba. Sa'yo lang. Sana nakita mo yun.

Pasensiya na. Mahirap magsabi ng nararamdaman, para akong naha-hotseat dito tulad ng oras na inamin kong tayo na sa isang TV show.

Bakit ba ang lakas ng tama mo sa akin? Di ko alam paano i-sort out utak ko sa'yo.

Khit sa litrato lang, para kang nasa harap ko. Automatic pa rin ang response, napapangiti na lang ako.

Kristina, marami ako gusto sabihin sa'yo na di ko masabi ng harapan.

I still love you, that will never change but it's something you did that i wish you didn't do.

Thinking back, na-realize ko brutal ang industriya natin sa totoong pagmamahalan. Napaka bagsik ng tadhana sa tulad natin na nais lang magpakatotoo. We were unprepared of the challenges our work and love will bring.

You grew up in the industry. You've been through some emotional torture. I wanted to protect you, but i failed. I wish i can say sorry and things will magically be back to how it's been.

I know deep down, you were sincere. I know there are factors that i wish i could simply trample to protect you. I felt bad to see you suffer for me. Worse, the public made you suffer more. It doesn't matter if i take all the blame and the pain, but to see you hurt, hurts me most.

It hurts that i have to replay the interview many times to get the cue. I've hurt you Kristina. I'm sorry.

Give me another chance. So easy to ask. But time kept whispering your name, my heart beats in synchrony with yours. How cool is that?

For sure, pagtatatawanan mo na naman ako sa malalim kong pagmuni muni. But it's true.

Do i look like a kawawang puppy now doing this?

I've loved you even before i was allowed to love you. As crazy as this sounds, ako ay basang puppy pagdating sa'yo.

Before tears fall and remind me I'm acting weird again, I'd just kiss your lips, close my eyes and dream of you, my dearest.