𝐑𝐔𝐍𝐍𝐈𝐍

Chapter 1 🂡

On a storming night, September 11, 2004, there was feet splashing against the water at a fast pace, as it was thundering . The sirens were louder as it drove down the road, at full speed, chasing a man who was unknown . All you can hear was screaming coming from outside . A small boy named De'Shawn Wilson, 6 years old, glanced out the window, as he watches the policeman shoot the unknown man down . You can hear the policemen screaming towards the unknown man . " Nigger, you shall die," said one of the policeman . The man bled out quickly . De'Shawn ran downstairs, waking up his mother and his siblings, as they run outside . He soon began to notice that the man was his father . Tears slowly dropped from his eye . He runs towards his father, watching him bleed on the ground . " HELP ! HELP ! So-somebody help please," De'Shawn said as he sobs and as tears rushes down from his eye . As his family rushes aside the father body . A policeman said "Get into the house you crazy savages . The man didn't deserve to live anyway . " De'Shawn gets rocks and began to throws them at the policeman . He runs towards them, as he begin to hit one of them softly repeatedly . The policeman had gotten out his weapon and beaten De'Shawn with it . De'Shawn ! Leave my baby alone," says De'Shawn mother. She began to run towards them, as she snatches De'Shawn and takes the rest of her family in the house . The neighbors watched from their porches, windows, and from the streets . Everyone was afraid . Mothers held their children to them closely .

(R.I.P to black males that died by the guns of the policemen)

*15 Years Later*

A young man, De'Shawn Wilson, now 21 years old, slowly began to hide in an abandon house . As other gang members in the house shoots outside at their rivals . Their rivals are seen to be in all red . Each set of members from each gang becomes a rotten corpse . But, this does not stop the gangs from firing their shots . It is beginning to become a bloody mess as there becomes piles of bodies . Sirens get louder and louder as the gang members have a shootout . The gang members are alarmed and quickly begin to escape . The blood's hops in their vehicle and drives away . As of the crips, they run to the back of the trap house, running away, not having a chance to look back . "Ayo, lil man don't look back," De'Shawn told one of the newest gang members who was 13 . Shots are being fired towards them . "Are we gonna make it alive," lil man said, while being exhausted . De'Shawn responded, "Yes, just trust me on this one ." A truck drove toward them and stopped , as the vehicle screeches . The gang hopped in the back of the truck and drives off . They feel the breeze and chill, as they head towards their territory . Reaching their destination, they get out and enters their gang house . The members just flop onto the couches being relieved from all the action that had happened on this day. "Man we lost so many homies today," one gang member said . Other spoke, "Just a normal day to be hones fam ." The big homies entered and said, "Ight patnas, I'ma need some of y'all to go out and get to recruiting members . We lost a lot in the shootout . Ima need De'Shawn and a few others to train the new members . And the treasurer to count the money . So now that we got that out of the way, get to business fam ." The members scattered the streets, as they were strapped with weapons . Suddenly, a vehicle comes by beginning to shoot at the gang . The gang reacts fast and fires back . They ran back to the gang house in a rush and told their big homie what happened in a shock . Nobody was hurt, but now they were ready for war .
The gang was released to go back to their business . De'Shawn takes the young new fellows to the projects . To show them their city and what it is like . He also schooled them on things in the hood . Letting them know that it is not easy and that not everybody survives . He buys them weapons out of the gang funds . They takes a smooth drive back to the gang house . This is where he trained them mighty hard . They learned how to tote, get better aim, and how to reload a gun at a faster pace . Many were tired and ready to give up, but De'Shawn made sure they didn't . "Look," said De,Shawn, "I lost my pops at the age of 6 to policemen . In this world, we only got ourselves . We can't trust no one . I had to join the gang at the age of 8 to help my moms . So , this is just the beginning get ready for a lot more and deadly shit, son . And i mean that . This shit isn't for no pussies or punks . If you freeze at the moment you need to shoot, then you're a dead body . Toughen up and don't be scared in this shit . Cause it's real life . And fear only get you dead . Do you hear me?" The boys said, "Yes." De'Shawn got louder, "I SAID DO YOU HEAR ME?", he shouted . "YES I DO," the boys shouted as in response to De'Shawn question . "Now, go home to your family ." De'Shawn exits out the door, slightly walking down da steps, as he walks down the street to his grandma house . On the way there, he greets his neighbors and his close friends . He holds the rail, as he walks up the steps then begins to walk on another set of steps . He bangs on his grandmother door, yelling "Open up grandma ." She comes to the open and unlocks it, slowly opening the door . "Boy if you don't quit banging on my goddam door," she said as she opens up the door . "I'm sorry, grandma . I love you," De'Shawn said, as he gives her a hug . She softly pops him on the head and laughs . She told him to come inside as she hands him his meal . "You better be out of trouble," she told De'Shawn, "them gangs don't get you nowhere but dead ." De'Shawn scoffs, as he chews his food, saying "Grandma, I'm cool and safe . Ian gonna die on you . Best and believe that . " But Grandma didn't accept that answer that he gave . "De'Shawn baby " she touches his cheeks with the palm on his hand and says, "That's what they all say, but guess what, many of them ended up dead ." De'Shawn thanked her for the food and grabs his belongings and said to her, "Well, I'm not many people ." And he heads out . Grandma whispered to herself, "When is he gonna stop being so hard headed ?" She heads for the door and locks it on his way out . De'Shawn slowly hums as he eats his food going to his mother house, which he lives at . The house is right around the corner, giving him some time to greet some more neighbors . He goes up towards his mother house, grabbing the key from under the rug, as he unlocks the door . He enters and greets the family . De'Shawn mother said to De'Shawn, "Now, what is that that you brought without sharing with your family?" De'Shawn responded, "Food I had gotten from grandmother's house ." His mother slammed down the comb she was using for his sister hair . She got up and rushed over to De'Shawn, immediately slapping the food out of De'Shawn's hand . "You're selfish and greedy . You low down bastard . You only think about yourself . I hate that woman and yet you beg for food from her . You're pathetic . You should live with her if that's the case," his mother said to him so angrily . "She's just helping me out, since there isn't enough to feed me here," De'Shawn said . His mother grew angrier and cut him off . She yelled, "There is ! There's leftovers that your siblings doesn't ! You're so ungrateful, De'Shawn . Your father died, because of you . You're 21 ! And yet you're still living with me ! You should be out of my damn house, because I don't give a damn about you . I only keep you here, so you can help out with you funky ass siblings ! Them monkeys don't know how to behave . " De'Shawn wiped a tear from his eye . "Don't call them no damn ass monkey," De'Shawn told her . She smacked him . His mother looked him dead in the eyes and said, "You son of a bitch ! Get out of my house and don't come back . Roam the streets like the savage that you are . I don't need your gang banging money anymore . " She spat at the ground to symbolize her disgrace of him . He walked out and told his siblings goodbye . All he could think about how much his mom hated him . Rage grew up inside him as he replayed the words his mother said to him about his father . The sun was down and he screamed at the area where his father died at . Walking with his head down, he heads to his babymother's apartment . De'Shawn buzzes the bell to his babymother's apartment . "De'Shawn, boy what do your deadbeat ass want," the babymother said. "Keisha just open up . I got kicked out of my mother's crib again g," De'Shawn responded . The babymother replied, " I'm tired of you and your mother dirty ass problems . I'm only opening up the door because ya daughter here . But she sleeping so you'll get to talk to her in the morning so c'mon ." The door unlocks, as De'Shawn opens it . He walks up the stairs, goes to her apartment, opening up the door . Keisha, whose De'Shawn babymother, rolls her eyes toward him . "Ight, I'm finna head to the room," De'Shawn told Keisha . He heads towards Keisha room, but Keisha stops him . "Your room is that pallet on the living room floor . You can't get no more of this De'Shawn," Keisha says . De'Shawn huffs and begins to make up his pallet . Keisha makes a statement towards De'Shawn saying, "My boyfriend coming, so I don't run the nigga away ." De'Shawn scoffs and lays his head down . As a big bang against Keisha's door happened . "I'm coming," Keisha said as she opens up the door . De'Shawn and Keisha boyfriends makes eye contacts . Her boyfriends lowly says, "Who is this nigga?" Keisha gives him a side eye . "It's Kayla's father now come on," Keisha says . Keisha and her boyfriends heads to her room, as they close the door . Minutes later, De'Shawn is disturbed by the banging and yelling going on in the room . "Man, shut the hell up . My daughter trying to sleep in the other room," says De'Shawn . The moaning, banging, and screaming had gotten louder . The smacking was happening repeatedly . De'Shawn stares at the ceiling as he puts the pillow over his face . Kayla, De'Shawn's daughter, comes into the living room . "Dada?" Kayla says . De'Shawn slightly puts the pillow to the side of him, getting himself up to make eye contact with Kayla . "Yes babygirl," De'Shawn says while he smiles . Kayla comes over to him and says, "I can't sleep . Mama and her boyfriend must be fighting again ." De'Shawn scoots over, while he lays Kayla next beside him . He slowly put the blanket on her. His body shifts, as he wraps his arms around Kayla . "You can sleep with me babygirl," De'Shawn said . "Okay, dada . Night Night," Kayla said, as she goes to sleep . De'Shawn soon began to sleep as well . The loudness coming from Keisha room continued . As it was not still a disturbance towards De'Shawn and Kayla . The morning approaches quickly . Kayla wakes up, turning around to wake De'Shawn up . "Dada, wake up," Kayla states . De'Shawn yawns as he slowly sits up . "Hi babygirl," De'Shawn says . Kayla hugs De'Shawn tightly, as De'Shawn does the same to Kayla . Keisha opens up her room door . She walks out and approaches Kayla, "Hey baby ." Kayla quickly looks over and runs towards Keisha . Keisha sweeps her up . "Hi mommy," Kayla said . "How did my baby sleep?" Keisha asked . Kayla said, "Good but then you and Justin was fighting, so I decided to sleep with dada ." Keisha smiles in shock responding, "Oh that's good baby . Sorry for us being loud . " De'Shawn scoffs . "Yeah, well think about my child being here before you decide to be fucking loud," De'Shawn tells Keisha . Keisha takes Kayla to her room . Then, shuts the door as she comes back to the living room . "This is my damn house . I do what I want . Be lucky I let you sleep here . Witcho bum ass , De'Shawn, " Kayla said loudly . De'Shawn got frustrated, as he thinks of words to say . "Man, I was just saying," De'Shawn said softly . Keisha sarcastically says, "Well don't 'just say' in my house ." Justin comes out of the room being confused . "What's all that noise damn," Justin said angrily . Keisha turns towards Justin and answers his question, "De'Shawn thinks we shouldn't have did my appointment last night ." Justin slowly walks towards De'Shawn, as De'Shawn gets up from the pallet . "Who the fuck is you to say what we can do," Justin said defensively . "Man, I wasn't saying that . I was just saying that y'all was too loud, while my daughter was trying to sleep," De'Shawn said firmly . Justin was heated . Justin responded, "I don't give a fuck bruh . Fuck your daughter ." De'Shawn had to processed what he said . Then, Deshawn said, "Ayo, bitch ass nigga, don't speak about my daughter like that . Fuck your mother ." Justin yelled, "Bitch !" Justin began to push De'Shawn . De'Shawn quickly connects his hits towards Justin face . Keisha screaming and yelling, "Stop, I'm calling the police !" Justin is slammed against the glass table . Keisha is trying to break it up . As the fights begins to wake their neighbors out of their sleep . Both are steady throwing punches . Justin hurried up and gets a glass piece trying to stab De'Shawn . Blood is gushing out of Justin nose . De'Shawn pulls out his gun . Kayla opens her door watching the fight . De'Shawn aim the gun towards Justin . He pulls the trigger, shooting Justin repeatedly . "No ! No ! No ! Kayla go back to your room ! Omg ! De'Shawn leave now," Keisha says while sobbing . De'Shawn glances at Kayla and leaves . Keisha calls the police, "Hello ! My baby daddy just killed my boyfriend . He shot him," Keisha says as she cry, "He's dead . De'Shawn Carter Wilson killed him . He is 6'2 ft . He's a gangbanger, who robbed malls . Yes, he killed many people while being in the gang... A Crip... Yes.. He abused me, while we was in a relationship.. My address is 233 Hollow, Apt ." Blood spread on the floor where Justin body laid . De'Shawn is running . He quickly runs in the woods and hides . Hearing police cars racing towards Keisha apartment . Keisha rushing outside . As the policemen step out of their car to take down notes . De'Shawn remembered one of the men, as the one he saw when he was 6 . His heart starts to race . De'Shawn runs further into the woods . Calling his big homie . Telling him that he is in big trouble . He heads to the gang house . Walking pass all the members with his hands in his pockets . De'Shawn knocks on his big homie office door . "I gotta run . She told a lot . She told shit that I never told her . Somebody a rat in this joint," De'Shawn says . The big homie responds, "Leaves and I'll find the snake best believe that son ." De'Shawn puts his hoodie on his head, walking out with his head down . He peeks kind of and see that posters are being stapled to trees about him being the most wanted . Thinking to himself he knows he has to leave America immediately . Meaning he gotta find a way to get to Canada without being caught . He catches a train heading to Wisconsin . As he reaches Wisconsin, he has to find a place to be but he can't stop . He has to keep running . Sitting in an alley, as he starve he eats food that he saved . He thinks about all the things that just happened . Life turned too quickly for him and he didn't know how to process it . Life was flashing like a flashlight before his eyes . Who did he have ? He was all alone . His daughter saw the monster that he was . Will he be ever to see her again ? A smooth nice went to a chaotic morning . How can he live being chase by everyone twenty-four seven? Life has just started and this is the beginning . Hell will rise as Heaven watches in disappointment . This wasn't a party . This was just a beginning where the Devil had controlled over his actions . As he backslid from his true creator . He wasn't created to run . But to save his soul . Who survives this run ?