Invader Zim x reader one shots,

What am i doing here?(D)

Hard ANGST warning! Suicide warning. Abuse warning.

(Y/N)'s POV
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I sat in my room, that I once called home.
Seeing my family slowly break into peaces.

Drug addict mother,
No father,
Alcoholic brother.

But then... there's Dib.

My boyfriend,

Ha, like he loves me! Good one!

I get up and go to the bathroom down the hall.
I open my, 'special drawer'.
I grab my needle and pills,
I walk back to my room.

I sit on my bed, and I plunge the needle into my wrist, I pull it over.
I do this about 10 more times, I take about 4 pills.
I then put on

I lay back and stare at the ceiling.
I start seeing weird things everywhere, I giggle a little.
I hear knocking on my door,

"Who is it?" I slur,

"It's Dib" I hear his cute voice,

I internally freak the fuck out,

"UMH DON'T COME IN YET!" I yell hiding the knife and pills underneath my bed.
I walk up to the door and open it, and soon as I do Dibs eyes widen.

I let him in, he grabs my chin with a serious look.

"What?" I once again slur and grab his hand,

My eyes widen when I see my arm.

I was wearing a short sleeve shirt

He could see my cuts.

"Uhm...h-how did they get there? Heheh?" I don't know what I was saying,

"(Y/N)." Dib says pulling me closer to him,

"Y-Yes?" I stutter,

"Why did you do that?" He looks at me with a saddened face,

I slowly start to break down, starting to cry.
Dib hugs me and I put my face in his chest,

"I'm sorry." I keep repeating,

"Sh sh. It's alright." Dib starts to stoke my hair slowly,

He also could see my red blood shot eyes.