No Different

The start of middle school

On the first day of middle school I was too busy trying to get to my classes on time that I didn't even bother to pay any attention to who was in my classes. This went on for about 4 days ( the first week of school). Once I was caught up with what was going on and where all my classes were, I was noticing who was in my classes and around me. Most of the people in my classes I did not know, but some people I did. The people who were in the hallway with my locker, were mostly " populars". That means that a lot if the time I had to take the longer way to classes or get stuck in their " group chats" which would take up the whole hallway. Within days of being near the "populars" I grew envious of them, slowly trying to convince myself to become one if them. But I didn't want to put that much effort into it. They wear expensive clothes ( most of the time uncomfortable ones), makeup, uggs, and a lot of other stuff I didn't like. When I knew that my grades were great and stable, I was noticing some boys who I kinda liked. I have never had a boy like me before ( at least that's what I know) so I want at least one guy to like me this year. I have been familiar with what the " populars" wear so I went shopping to get some new clothes. I went to the mall because those are the most comfortable " fancy" clothes, as I call them. I got some jeans, heals( beige colored) and 3 " fancy" shirts. I went to school and the guy that I thought would like me if I dressed differently, didn't talk to me at all. "Maybe he just doesn't like me," I told myself. In that same day that I didn't think he liked me, he turned to me and asked," what sheet do we need to get out?" I freaked out inside, so I told him by pointing at my paper and not talking so I wouldn't squeal. After that, I was satisfied with the day.