MONSTA X Lim Changkyun x ot6 Angst Warning: suicidal thoughts, character death
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How had it come to this? He didn't know. He was just as suprised as they were when he was chosen and not Gunhee or the other trainees. They looked at him with hate and disgust. He had just stolen two rappers work and tossed it aside. He had taken their place.
Changkyun didn't know if he was supposed to be happy or sad. He wasn't going to give up, he was determinded to debut. But the glares of his other bandmates where stabbing him. He didn't even know why he had been chosen, Gunhee had worked harder and was better than him.
Their manager told them that they were going to debut in a few months as a band and that they had to befriend ech other. Changkyun was quiet most of the time and felt like it wasn't his place. The others had just ignored him, the only times they talked to him was when they yelled at him in practice.
It wasn't like they avoided to talk to him, just they didn't if it wasn't something nessecery. Jooheon still talked to him but only when they was in the studio. Most of it was angry words and glares.
Changkyung blinked hazily as he walked back to the dorms. About a week ago, he got a letter from the doctor. In the end of that week, he had found out that he had leukemia. He knew that idols couldn't debut or preform if they had health issues. Neither was he surprised when they manager found out and decided to talk to him. He agreed to resign his contact and even requested that #GUN would take his place. Tommorrow, he and their manager would announce that he was going to move out.
He blinked as colors and sounds slowly disappeared.
Just like that, his dream was shattered. All in one week.
He didn't know what to think. It was just like his world stopped, he felt emotionless. He didn't know what to feel, if he was going to cry or just curl into a ball. Or maybe both.
He didn't notice as tears ran down his cheeks. He was going to die.
"I'm sorry but I'm afraid there's nothing we can do."
"If worst, you'll have two months left."
Changkyun let out a choked sob. Somewhere long ago, he stopped being himself. But this, it broke him completly.
I'm sorry.
He hated those words. They were so empty, built on guilt and pity.
At least his members was going to be happy.
Changkyun didn't know how long he stood there, breaking down. He didn't even know how long he had been out until his legs slowly seemed to doze off.
When he came back to the dorms, nobody was up. A part of him were thankful that they didn't see him cry and another part just wanted someone to hug. But being in the dorms was like being outside-it was cold and no one really talked to him.
