A Cowboys Love

A cowboys love - chapter 2

Ok i decided i should keep the book going because it annoys me when other people just drop there books and try something else but please 

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Chapter 1

Walking down my road to Jack's house which was only a block away, felt like i was about to throw myself off the edge of a cliff and i probably would do that just to get rid of the guilt i was feeling from cheating. Even though i knew i deserved whatever Jack threw at me i still didn't want to finish this with him because i love him or most likely LOVED him in barely half an hour. 

At his door, it seemed like just the that i had walked out of mine, i was trying to think of a way to break it nicely but all i could think of was bitch, cheater and too many other words which made my heart ache.

Just as i was about to knock the door swung open, and there stood Jack. My face must have looked pretty horrible because as soon as he saw me he pulled me into one of his amazing hugs and was about to kiss me and tell me everything would be okay when i pushed him away.

"Babe, what's wrong? Have i done something?" Jack asked with worry filling his voice.

"No, its not you. Can i come in so we can talk?" I whispered because i didn't trust my vioce.

"Sure, come up to my room"

As i stepped into his room memories came rushing back of all the wonderful times i had spent with Jack. Only to think again how i was about to ruin everything because of what i did last night. 

"Jack....I'm so so sorry" I sobbed. I finally couldn't hold it together.

"What.." 

"I cheated on you while i was drunk" i blurted 

I was so close to turning around and running outi=side and never coming back by the look on his face but i stayed to take what he should be throwing at me already. 

"You WHAT?!" He raged

"Last night, Amanda, Lori, Teish and I went to a party on one of the places just out of town it was near the end of the night i think when i met a guy, I think he was your Luke but i can't remember and i think we had sex but I....." I blabbered when he cut me off.

"You think you cheated on me with my BEST FRIEND!" He screamed at me. "And at some stupid party where you got drunk like all the other weekends?! Does this happen every weekend and you just on the spur of the moment decided to tell me?"

"Jack! It was the first time i swear. I can't even remember if anything happened or not! I am so sorry i hurt you and the guilt i feel will haunt me for the rest of my life but i would never ever  be having sex with a different person every weekend and not tell you about it because i love you but i just ruined that!" I screamed at him trying to hate me more so that i wouldn't hurt as much afterwards. 

He sighed "Look, Lily i love you to but a part of my heart broke when you told me that and i don't know how to mend it without you but if i did give you a second chance would you be faithful to me? Can i trust that your not going to cheat again or will i have to come with you to your parties?"

Why did Jack have to be so sweet and loving and gorgeous? My heart broke when i realized what happened and here he was giving me a second chance even after what i did. 

"Jack...I love you more than you can imagine but i think we both know in our hearts that web aren't truly in love. Before this weekend, when i got drunk i thought about us and how much i loved you no matter how many boys were trying to steal me into a room" i took a deep breath and saw how what i was saying completely broke his heart. 

"Last night i didn't even think about you until i realized what i had done! I will still love you and be there for you when you need me but i couldn't go on loving you knowing that i hurt you this bad" i mumbled all this feeling my heart being crushed but knowing it was right.

"I love you Jack" I whispered before turning and leaving not being able to look him in the eye and seeing the pain and hurt i had caused him. 

It was getting dark and i still hadn't gone home or rung Teish. I had been walking around for what felt like hours in the back streets in Miradel my home town in the Cape York Peninsula. I must've looked a mess since i had been crying for about 3 hours straight and i was starting to think would i ever run out of tears for Jack. Would i ever love again?

My phone started ringing in my pocket to Boom Boom (Justice Crew) somewhere inside of me i was wishing for it to be Jack but why would that happen he must hate me by now. I looked at the caller ID and my breath caught in my throat.