La Farfalla

Prologue

How much time have I lived through?

Through how many worlds have I travelled?

How many times have I failed, and felt the pain?

How many emotions and lives have I sacrificed-- I can't count them all...

Numbers too great to count, So much that the sky and the stars became blurs.

But no matter what, I've always had "You" there with me.

I've always had "Your" gentle smile to reassure me.

"I'm fine, So...". On that day, "You" smiled gently and left me with those words.

The gentle smile "you" show to me in that day, "Your" warm lips, "Your" kindness.

An event... So very, very long ago that it almost feels like a lifetime has passed.

Those words rest with me even now. Not once have they faded from my mind.

I knew all along. That was "Your" gentle lie to me.

A lie far too selfless. All so that I could continue onwards.

I could tell even then that "You" were lying, but I clung to "Your" word regardless.

I place everything on "Your" kindness.

Nights spent wailing with grief.

Winters spent writhing in agony.

For 15 years the pain, the sadness, the regret, the rage, and the loneliness in my heart never fading.

No matter how much the seasons passed.

No matter how blessed I was by people's kindness

There was a one regret forever remained that wouldn't gone from my mind.

The regret I had for 15 years.

It's never gone even though I tried to conceal it nor hide it.

Of course, I already know it.

I know that "You'd" never blame me for what happened.

Even So,

Within that endlessly repeating time,

The weight of the sin that i have...

It never faded, not even for a second.

But now...

Now, having crossed through those innumerable worlds,

I've finally become Aware of their importance.

The importance of my friend and "You".

Wandering blindly in the dark,

Having lost my bearings, on a journey with an unknown destination...

Those WHO stood by me and supported me through it all. My precious Friends...

And of course, "You".

Never fading, No matter how much time passed, how many worlds, how many "You" Are. My feelings towards "You".

Even though I tried to forget "You", I just can't...

Because my feelings towards "You".

Because everyone was always there for me, Because "She" gave me a push on the back,

And Because "You" were right here with me too.

You always supported me and believe in me.

These were the reasons that I'm able to move onwards once more.

The "You" living on inside my heart gives me courage, resolve even now.

"Pull yourself together already".

I'm sure "You'd" be saying something like that right about now.

I wouldn't blame "You".

After all, I feel the same way.

But "You" need to understand. I can't bring myself to let go these memory and these feelings.

All the tears that were shad, the blood that was bled, All my feelings to "You" Which left unsaid.

I wasn't able to let go of a single thing...

That's Why I've decided to aim for it once more.

Yes. The "Barrier".

The "Barrier of Fate".

The "Barrier of Zero".

The "Barrier" Which exists in the Gap between past and future, between Miracles and fate.

It may well take me another few lifetimes in order to achieve it.

It may be that I need to traverse countless more worlds.

But I couldn't care less.

There's not an iota of hesitation left within me.

I've steeled myself. No matter how many times it takes, No matter how many worlds I cross, No matter how much pain I must feel, the sadness I must feel.

I'II make it there for sure.

I'II be able to "Begin" once again.

That is my...

That is our choice.

So I don't need "Your" gentle lies anymore.

Please, wait for me.

I will release you from that bind spell of time.

Until the day that we Can be together again.

Until the day that we Can meet once more.

I give everything I have to "you".

My feelings to you, my soul.

To "You". Someone special and important to me.

The person I loved.

In that "Place" and that "Time".

"Your" time Will start again.

Until the day that begins our new "Past" and our new "Future".

I will save you.

I promise.

My unwavering promise to "You".