Mistakes lead me

First hope

Conney's P.O.V.

i just stood there on the outside of the school's bathroom with my back against the door hands on my knees trying to collect my breath for a second and. i looked down to notice a bulge in my pants " ohh god what do i do now ..?." i thought to myself but i had bigger things to worry about right now but. so many thoughts running through my head at the moment but one main question kept popping up." Why me.?" Why would he do that to me .?Just like that on short notice wasn't he the one that bullied me earlier throwing me to the ground leaving a scar on my face..!! It was too much going on in little too much for me to handle. I just wanted to walk home and go to bed , i know if i were to do that i would have more problems down the line that i personally know i wouldn't be ready for. So i got gathered myself best i could AGAIN (annoyed face) and, slowly walked to my classroom.

I opened the door and as expected a thousand eyes on me even my teachers Miss.Kinney. I loved that teacher i know right sounds weird coming from a student i should hate school. I mean i do but, not her she different from the others, she just seemed kind and sweet to me like she knows i have a hard time with life and the only teacher that acted like i had feelings too.

" and why are you so late darling i thought you liked this class at least a little bit.." She said with warm smile.

" oh oh i - i - i do Miss. Kinney i - i j- just was uuh i'm sorry i like this class and, you as a teacher i - i just huuuuh." i tried to explain looking like a complete idiot

" It's alright sweetheart just take a set and, read section (2-4) and write a summary answering the questions along alright. Miss.kinney said in a gentle tone. I just nodded my head and, headed towards my seat walking threw the rows till i had reach my desk and did as the teacher had assigned me to do.Till a light brown skinned girl with black curly hair and brown eyes she was a pretty sight to look at but she was irking me because she kept looking and me with a blank expression on her face i ignored her but, i don't like the feeling of someone just watching me it just got worse because she had the nerve to just slide her seat closer to me and, tapped me on the shoulder i flenched a little and looked at her annoyed so she could get the message but that didn't help at all because she just kept looking at me and, tapping on me and. just got even closer i was getting nervous but, managed to ask why she was doing what she was doing.

" What the hell do you want.?" i said flatly

That's when she started glaring at me like i hurt her feeling a little bit that had made me feel bad at what i said to her.. but then her expression was hard to recognize but. then she started laughing a little bit. Now i was a bit puzzled look on my face cause i was lost.

"this chick need a little help" i thought to myself

" what's up with you,?" i asked confused

she just looked then smiled at me that's when she spoke and said

' question is what's up with you and, all them red marks on you,?" she said with a smirk growing on her face

" n- nothing you need to know" i said nervously i felt my face getting hot so i quickly just went back to my work.

" hahaha it's all good child idk what it is i'm not a bad person i was kidding don't take it to heart okay" she said between chuckles . I just looked at her confused then my face had grown softer looking at her " she seem nice she's actually talking to me" i thought to myself but, now that i had thought about it i haven't seen her face around before. i was about to ask a question till she filled in my silents with her words.

"how rude of me not to introduce myself my name is JJ.JJ Anderson i recently moved here from New jersey b/c my momz work was moving down here so we had to pack up and, move it's not that bad down here like i thought it would be i just hate the fact that i had to leave behind my friends i was close to." .She explained to me it felt nice for someone talkin to me for a first cause here at Hilton High School i'm just an outcaste to all the others but, not JJ she didn't mind me at all she looked like she enjoyed my company which made me smile in the inside. I just sat there while doing my work and, listened to her life story and how she liked this little town after JJ was done talking she looked back at me to see if i was still listening to her which i was so i just gave her a slight nod to let her know i was engaged about the topic we were on.

"sooo enough about me what bout you i don't even know you name child come on spill it.? she said with a grin on her face

had she really asked about me her question/statement took me by surprise "She actually wanted to know me really..?" i thought to myself

"uummm s- sorry my name is Conney." i said nervously

"awww what a cute name for a cute boy" she said

oh god have i heard wrong about what she just said,i mean she just called me cute i'm far from that everyone here thinks i'm ugly,garbage,trash, a sick freak that just shouldn't even be on earth i mean one day i accidently bumped into this guy he got so mad and slammed me against the locker claiming that i need to go die somewhere before they make more of me. thinking about that made my heart hurt a little and, my eyes water a but, i didn't cry. I just took a deep breath and, blew it out slowly saying.

"thank you your kind and sorry about earlier i didn't mean to sound rude or anything." i said softly not even making eye contact."

"ohh gosh you're cool beans brah i'm not even mad at you i mean i was all in your face i would have said the same thing to maybe even worse hahaha" said said in a low voice

i just looked at her and, just gave a gentle smile '' is this the first friend i made. Could this year finally turn out for the better and, i not be so scared of everything" i thought to myself what is all of this now god i just don't know but right now i don't care because this feeling inside me feels amazing warm and soft with a spark of joy i haven't felt like this in a long time "was my first strike of hope..?