Warning: Themes of drugs, violence, sexual assault and swear words. Read at your own risk
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I still remember the day when i celebrated my 6 months clean. My parents were proud of me, and so was my best friend. She was a sweet girl, and (almost) always wore skirts. The one thing that was so iconic about her was her eyeliner made wing, everybody recognized her because of that wing. It'll probably sound cheesy but i loved her so much.
I was clean from all the drugs i did in my teenage years, but not for long. After i celebrated those 6 months clean with my parents and best friend i called my guy, David. The thing was, was that my life was worse in those 6 months than before. It were probably just the side effects of my body not being used to the fact i didn't do drugs almost everyday anymore. But i didn't know that back then.
So, i called my guy and someone else answered the phone: "Hello? Who the fuck are you? And why are you calling my son?" He said. I didn't care because i wasn't involved in his personal life. But i also was concerned. He still was like a big brother to me. We knew each other since pre-school and we've been friends till this day. "Sorry, i'm Raven, is David around?" I said. "No, he's not. I'm sorry for the swearing, our family is just going through rough times lately." He said sad. "I'm sorry, i won't bother you anymore, have a great day." And then i hung up. I wasn't just curious, i was also concerned. Because maybe something happened with David. And that would really hurt me.
I didn't know how to get my stuff without David. So i just needed to wait a couple hours, maybe days. I wasn't really up to waiting that long. So i went to the medicine cabinet and grabbed some random pills. They were blue, some of them white and had this weird oval shape. I didn't know what i was going to take so i read the words that were on the orange medicine case. 'Warning: Opioid. Risk of overdose and addiction' "Good enough." I thought. I took the pill and felt those first 4 seconds of happiness. It's the best feeling in the entire fucking world.
The things with drugs are, are that people only take them to feel that happiness for those first 4 seconds, also called 'euphoria'. It's like, all your problems just disappeared and you forget them for some reason. You feel like you have the power to control your body again. But then those 4 seconds are over, and those problems come back to real life and enter your fucked up brain. And you lose the whole power to your body again. But whatever, i always did it for those 4 seconds.
As i said, the first 4 seconds were great, but then i came back to the real world again. And my problems came back to my life, i know, i was fucking pathetic.
My phone ringed. 'Haley <3' it said. My best friend. I had literally never met a girl like that before, she was the best fucking friend you'd ever wish. I grabbed the phone as fast as i could and clicked on the green little button. I knew i was high but who cared, Haley couldn't notice that anyway. "HEY ASSHOLEE." She yelled through the phone. "Jeezzz, don't you have parents or something." I said laughing. "Oh fuck, forgot about that." We laughed. "So, i hope you don't already took drugs in these 30 minutes of freedom.". I literally thought she was stalking me or something, it was really random from her to say that. "Haha funny." I said, trying to play it cool. "No, Raven, for real. I can hear the happiness and depression at the same time in your voice. Please don't tell me you took drugs. It isn't candy. And besides that, you were fucking clean." I was so shocked.
The bad thing of being best friends for like 10 years is that they can notice everything you did. And that is fucking annoying.
"Don't worry, i'm still clean." I reacted, still playing it cool. "I can't trust those words, i'm coming over." And then she hung up.
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Authors note: Yes, this is kinda inspired by the series 'euphoria'. But i kinda like the beginning of this story, haha. Sorry if you didn't like it :).
