Geo Club

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KEEGAN
Vora
Good news! U can come to the next meting Wednesday!
Keegan
Who's all there?
Vora
Cassie Long and Mason Cooper.  But u have to promise that u won't say anything about this club.  This is a safe place for the LGBTQ+ to come and just get comfuble with being themselfs
Keegan
Oh yea I won't.  Thank you btw
Vora
I'm glad your getting out there!  Good job!

That's right, I texted Vora on Facebook about this club.  I guess all the rumors are true.  But soon my dad called me down.  He was sitting on the couch drinking some alcoholic drink and smoking weed. 

Dad-GET ME A BEER YOU SHIT!!

I didn't say anything back, I just went and got a beer for him.  That is how I avoid for getting hit.  I do what he says and that is it. 

Dad-About god dam time!

He ripped the cold beer out of my hands and he opened it with his teeth.  It made my bones shiver when he spit the cap out on to the floor.  I looked away and went to the kitchen.  I looked though thd kitchen to see what I can make for dinner. 

There was nothing so I got on my shoes and my beat up winter jacket, I grabbed my car keys and went to the living room with my dad already passed out with a lit cigarette in his left hand and the half-drank beer in the right hand.  I sigh and too the cigarette and the beer out of his hand.  I put a blanket on top of him.

My dad wasn't awlays like this.  He was once like all the other dads, wanting the best for there Children.  He didn't really drink when he had my mom and my little sister that is now gone.  My dad forsed me to stay with him and when my sister and mom went to New York with my dad's best friend. 

But we kept in touched, we called everyday, then it turn into everyother day, then every week. . .sooner or later it turn into every other 6 months.  Not that anyone is keeping track of it but me. 

Anyway, I went to subway and got a sub for dinner.  I have money that I get for doing peoples homework or doing something that they don't want to do.  I get a good 50 or 100 bucks out of it. 

I went to a library that one lady, her name is Lena, let's me stay if I don't want to go home.  I sit down at the hangout spot and ate my sub.  Some people were still in the library but that didn't stop Lena from coming in and talking to me.

She is a mid-thirdly year old with 2 middle school girls and a per-K son.  She is happily married for 10 years.  She has been throught the same stuff that I am going through. 

Lena-Hello Keegan! How's it going?
Keegan-Hi Lean, ok I guess.  Just eating dinner.
Lena-Anything new for school?
Keegan-Yeah, I am going to get into a club
Lena-That is amzing! What club?

She is full of questions sometimes, but that just makes it easier to talk to her.  I don't have to come up with things to say.  Makes my life easier.

I lied about the whole GSA thing, she doesn't know that I am gay and I would like to keep it that way.  At least for now.  Soon I was done but stayed with Lena to talk to her.  She was telling me about Carly, her oldest and how she got a boyfriend.  I smiled at that.

I don't see myself ever having a boyfriend.  I am too clinging and to" close in" for anyone to love.  Also, I always take a good thing and make it shitty.  But she was also telling me that Alex, her middle one was talking about having babies.  Her boy was 4 years old and has no idea what the hell is going on. 

Lena-You should be getting home.  You must have homework after Thanksgiving.
Keegan-Yeah I do, just don't want to go home I guess.
Lena-It will be ok Keegan, you are strong.  You can make it through this.

She let go of my hands and smiles.  I kinda smiled back and nodded my head.  I grabbed my keys off the tabble and sighed lightly.  I walk out and head to my house. It started snowing.  I started to smile and I stopped my car. 

I kept my hands on the staring wheel.  I think about what happened before my mom left.  I remember her back long hair, he glasses, he dimon shape face.  But I miss her voice the most.  I have my dad's voice but I have my mom's face.  That just makes my dad even more pissed off sometimes. 
I looked outside and I felt a tear running down my cheak.

When I looked at the clook it was 9, I blacked out.  My eyes hurt from crying so much and my checks are red.  I need to get home before my dad wakes up. 

I went to my house and my dad was waiting outside and was smoking a cigarette.  I rolled my eyes and got out of my car, it was still snowing.  I know he was waiting for me beacuse he was outside. 

Dad-Where the fuck have you been?
Keegan-Just. . .out. . .with friends.
Dad-That's a lie, you don't have any friends you piece of shit

I walked up the stairs, that lead to my house, and hopped that he would try to touch me.  But when I felt hand wrap around my neck.  It got tighter and son cut off my air way, I felt as if I was going to die.
Dad-You can sleep out here tonight!
He thrown me down the stairs I had just climbed up.  I held my head so my head didn't split open.

I heard the door slammed and lock behind me.  I was in the cold snow and I couldn't get up.  I couldn't feel anything inside or outside.  I just felt numbed everywhere.  I need someone to save me, sooner then later.