I'm sorry for saying this but you know that I love you, right? I mean, how can I kissed you when there's no feeling at all.
I know you're kind towards everyone, I admitted that I misunderstood. I fell for a guy who lend me one of his gloves, his socks, his hand when I need it, that time. I fell for your kindness since very first time.
I misunderstood when you take my hand and ask me to hugged you that night. I don't know that your intentions were different from mine.
When I took your glasses and you asked me "I am ugly without it, right?" I want to answer "no, you're not" but I can't say that bcs your eyes extremely attractive so I couldn't say anything hehe.
I mean, how can I didn't feel anything after those hugs and kisses.
You know, my heart ached every time you tell me about how's our workplace people treat you. I want to make you happy, but it's never works, I'm not your source of happiness. I'm nothing but only a good friends to you.
I'm so sorry that I lied from the start. I can't keep my words that there's no hard feelings between us.
I tried hard many times to erase these shitty feelings so we can be friends like you want me to, but I failed. It's suck to have my heart broken many times, but it's bloomed again.
Everyone blaming me for being this stupid, I admitted. I don't want to be like this too. It's very tiring, to love someone who doesn't love me back, to waste time and energy for someone who didn't ask me to do those things. But I made good memories, I learned many things, I develop myself better, I grow and I have a good friend with a big heart whom I'll adore forever.
Thank you, bcs of you I experienced those butterflies in my stomach, again. Thankyou that I'll get stronger once I'll pass this broken heart.
