I walk along side you as i remembered all the cruel words. As i remembered the not so empty threats. As i remembered the bruises only you and i could see. I wondered why you hit me. Was a punching bad to boring? did you need the screams to enjoy it? was hurting me your pleasure. Some would say i am a coward for staying with someone who causes such immense pain. I am scared. I have no life skills, no money, and no job. They say if i stay with you i will die, but what will i do when i finally escape you? work? i have no skills. You made sure of that. Scooped me up right after graduation. I was weak and you used that to your advantage. Everything was always to your advantage. If i finally did find the courage to get out and get help who would i tell? There is not a soul in this town who does not know who you are and does not know the warm smile that hides the monster you are. And if i leave who will your next victim be? What other women will have to endure the things you call love. Love is not hateful, Love does not mean beating me unconscious and then bringing me flowers to say you're sorry. The worst part of all of this is somewhere in my twisted, abused mind i love you. It breaks my heart to know a human i love could hurt me in such a bizarre way. One day i will be strong and i will find a way to do better, but today i pray we keep walking peacefully.
